malliennah`

2007-11-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

I think I should update .

Okay ,its exactly two weeks since the O'Levels Officially ended .I've been spending my days at home .Not really looking for jobs .I don't know where to start .Like what type of jobs to take ?HELLO , I've never worked before .Hahh .Its okay la .It doesn't really bother me much .Just that I'm stucked to the same routine .Thats all .

I missed some people who was once very close to me .And I still can't figure out why everything turned out this way .Is it me or is it them ?

I guess that I've made a wrong decision .Tell me what to do .I'm tired of everything .

2007-11-19T14:40:00.000+08:00

Girl, I hope you're reading this.

Well, I guess it has been had for you to accept everything. I apologise for everything that has happened between us. You and I know that we can never go on anymore. Thank you for being by my side for the past 8-9 months. I appreciate it a lot. You made a difference in my life, in a way and another.

I didn't expect to get this close to you when I first know you. Cos I thought that we only have that senior-junior / NCO-cadet relationship. Eventually, I don't remember how and why, we got close to each other. It was really unexpected. I guess at that time, you got a conflict with your friends. Remember? I guess you can remember. You sms-ed me almost everyday, and you even walked home with me. I appreciate all that.

Only God knows how many times we argued. And most of the times, its about things that are minor and unthinkable of. Get the drift? I feel guilty each time we argue cos I know that I'm the cause of everything. I'm just a stubborn, surly girl who refuse to give in and make up for everything. I respect you for being able to stand my untolerable behaviour. No one else can, and I told you this once.

I guess that there is something lacking in our friendship lately. I won't say what it is. Lets just keep it to ourselves.

I know that it was my mistake to give you high hopes and not to tell you the truth. I suck at making decisions. I thought that we can forget the past and move on with our lives. I really want you to change and stop the-you-know-what. But at the same time I know its difficult for you. Thats the reason I let you be. I know that you've and you're trying to give the best. I know. I know.

I've given you so many chances. And for me, its sincere from my heart. I would really want to thank you for calling it the 'fcuking last chance'. Yeah. I regretted everything.

Lastly, I want to thank you again for everything. Being there for me, supporting me, being my listening ear. Sorry that we can't go on. This will be the last time I blog about you, since we have to forget each other.

Girl, I still owe you something. I settle that 'debt' soon. No worries.
So girl, whom was once my bestf, LETS PLAY PRETEND. WE NEVER KNOW EACH OTHER.

LOVE,
Siti Amalina ;
the one whom was once your bestf.

ps: never listen to that song by Vagetoz. It will hurt US more.

2007-11-18T16:57:00.000+08:00

OoOoOo !!~

Yesterday
6Unity class reunion.
Me. Annana. Sanche. Chee Hao. Nadia. Suhaina. Jannah. Liyana. Syafiqa. Ashraf.
Did catching up.
Eat and talked.

Left for Eastpoint.

Taufik Autograph Session.
Me. Iffa. Kak Myra. Kak Anna. Kak Nisa. Kak Shad.
AziQa and Anati can't make it.
I'm happy and I melted.

Dinner at LJS.
New member ; elephant in bikini.
Hehh.

TAUFIK AUTOGRAPH SESSION LASTED FOR LIKE MORE THAN 1HR30MINS!

Bus-ed down to Bedok Inter.
FS chalet discussion.

Ohh.
Pics, where are you?
Hahh.

.GONE

2007-11-13T13:24:00.000+08:00

Helluus..!

I'm done with the POA Paper1. So it means that O'Levels are officially over.
Still, I'm not really excited bout the whole thing. Hahh.

2007-11-07T16:11:00.000+08:00

ONE MORE, JUST ONE MORE TO.
*ITS NOT OVER !

However, I'm not really excited that O's are finishing soon. Cos I know how bad my results would be.

Oh, I have so many things to update about. Practicals, Graduation Day and commencement of the GCE O'Levels.

So here we go.. :D

18th October ;

Had my O'Levels Science Practicals. I was super excited when I see glass blocks on the lab bench. I know it would be something similiar to Prelims questions. I was smiling inside my heart through the first 45mins.. Then, when its time for the Chemistry experiment, I feel like cursing myself inside out.. I didn't understand the first question and my practical skills so sucks. I guess I've thrown 15 precious marks just like that. The first thing I told myself after I left the lab is, "GOODBYE DISTINCTION". I want a distinction badly for Combined Science. Oh Wells.

Lets move on ;;

19th October ;

Graduation day. I reached the quadrangle just as the bell rang. Phew. (: I've never been late in my entire life in BNSS :D

Anyway.. Proceeded to hall after my last assembly in school. (:

Waited for the event to start. Chatted with classmates and told Mdm Tao that I'm not applying for the MI thingy.

Speeches from both Principals somehow touched my heart. Esp when Mrs Kong cried. The photo video thingy from all the classes were shown. I cried when Mdm Tao gave that speech. Oh Wells.

The Certificate of Recognition and Appreciation were given next. I was invited up on stage, with 7 other classmates of mine. Thank you Mdm Rogayah. !

Had some 'makan-makan' but I went to slack with my two best buddies while waiting for the DeepaRaya concert. Bestf decided to go home after Ceremony.

Good things come in TWO~!!

Then I joined the class for a while. (:

I think I'm gonna miss them badly~!!

Said goodbye to best buddies. I then joined my gerek classmates in class. I guess that was my last time stepping into that class. Wonderful and painful memories there. Oh, we played FuzzyWuzzy and some lame-idiotic-games which needs your brain! I had fun!

Then off to hall for concert.

MY GEREK CLASSMATES~!!

The concert was boring. Should have gone home. Haha.

24th October -07th November;

Commencement of GCE O'Levels exams. After 11 days of 14 papers, from 24th Oct to 7th Nov, with no day-off in between, i'm finally here. (: Left with one paper, just one.

I'm proud of myself that I sat for the POA paper. There are some who purposely didn't turn up for the paper. No matter how well/bad I did, I'm still proud that I sat for it. ((:
Am I right, Iffa? (:

I KNOW THAT I WILL HAVE BAD RESULTS. SO YEAH. I'VE TRIED MY BEST, I GUESS.

I'm still waiting for the 13th November.
Last paper.
And I have no idea what to do during the break. ((:

AND I HAVE A GOOD/BAD NEWS. (i don't know to categorise it into a good or bad news) (:
I think that I will not be going for the CI course.
Instructor called JiaHui the other day.
But nobody called me.
Thats the good news.
However, I got two missed calls from a private number.
I don't know who called.
Maybe people from HTA..?
Thats the bad part...!

OH WELLS ;

p/s : dear muslim classmates of mine. sorry for not following you people go 'jalan raya' after our Geog Paper1 on Wed.. Its NOT our last outing together, so don't worry. (:
I have my reasons.
And sometimes I don't see myself being part of the class. And I guess I'm not appreciated. So yeah. Thats what I feel.

TILL HERE :

2007-10-05T20:27:00.000+08:00

AKU BINGIT OKE?

I don't know what to say. I almost gave up just now. Yup, again, I wanna give up. I'm blessed having a bestie that never fail to encourage me and keep me going. Thanks girl. (:

I somehow got pissed with both my Humanities teachers (i know they did nothing wrong). Still, I really got pissed.

My Geography teacher is pushing me to hard. I can't take it. From my point of view ; he wanted me to study Geography and nothing else. BUT I know he didn't mean that way. He wanted me to practice more and score well for Geography. Oke, I don't want to attend the Geography study group with this group of boys from my class yesterday evening. I have my reasons. That is I want to study other subjects. I am already involved with another group, so why must i join another group? Cos I got an F9 for Geography during Prelims? C'mon, thats so unreasonable oke? I realised that I've been studying Geography eversince I got back my depressing Geography results. Do you think its fair? And I don't think that it is my fault when I throw tantrums in your class. You can't even understand how I feel. I have 6 other subjects to take care off too. (I still have Malay to take). You couldn't be anymore heartless by asking me to go over to that place to study my other subjects while the rest are doing Geography with you. No, you can't understand me, Mr.Lee. I know that I always refuse to do all the practices you give the class. I think that I've had enough.

And, as for my History/Social Studies teacher. Urgghh. I really got nothing to say. I'm tired of going through the same thing every lessons. Oh, I don't mind going through all that. BUT, at least take our work and really mark and give us grades. I tried my best to produce good work, but without you marking my scripts, I totally give up la oke? I've got nothing else to say already. Oh, so pissed oke?

I don't know why. But something is stopping me from achieving my dreams. And I always feel like giving up.

Again, I'm blessed having a bestie that never fail to push me and encourage me. She's the girl whom I spent my day with till about 6pm in school. Girl, you have really helped me a lot in Chemistry oke? I'm really glad that you want to help me in my weak areas. I've never found someone like you. I appreciate you. We listen to each other's problem and stuffs. I'm really looking forward to studying with you during the marking days. I need help in History. Again, Thank You..

Oh, I'll find a way to help you in making you BF study oke? Dun worry.. (:

13 DAYS TO PRACTICAL
;
14 DAYS TO GRADUATION DAY
;
19 DAYS TO MY FIRST PAPER
.

2007-09-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

Omg !!

I'm so happy .

I passed my prelims with flying colours .

All my hardwork has been paid off .

I passed it well . Didn't fail any subjects .

Just hope I will perform the same during O 's .

p/s : the first paragraph is a BIG LIE !! Its the real opposite of the reality . Get the drift ?

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Believe you can and you're halfway there ; -Theodora Roosevelt ,

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From AziQa's blog :

Imagine Anati, Felina, Iffa,Malliennah...

...someone telling your Mom you have 7 pts in your hands already?

Oke, that's really OH MY GOD !

AziQa, I really hope that that's true. Yeah, like someone praying that I will get 7 pts and someone telling my Mom that I already have 7 pts in my hand. I'm struggling to even get 17 oke?

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I can see it coming. I'm just afraid that I will not make it. But I'm not giving up.

" ...You're a pleasant student to teach. Its still not too late to get your As. I have not given up on you, so you can't give up on yourself. If everyone has given up on you, then you will be the last person to give up on yourself. You can see that I have given up on some of your classmates. I didn't even bother to help them improve their grades. So, you can't simply give up just like that. You have come so far. And your past results does not show that you are not working hard. Maybe for the prelims something had gone wrong somewhere. Reflect on what went wrong. And do find me if you need help..."

-Mr Kevin Lee , my Geography Core teacher.

Thank you Mr Lee. I won't give up. One more month. Just one more month.

2007-09-12T17:46:00.000+08:00

OHH PRELIMS BABY ;

OH MY GOD! Prelims papers are OH-KAY LAH!
I can do BUT the problem lies in answering the questions correctly. Understand?

Monday I had my Maths P2. I struggled tru the paper. And Mdm Tao said it was horribly done. Sighs. BUT I'M PUTTING IN EFFORT OKE? At least she agreed with that too. ((:
Also I had my History Paper. Hmm. For the FIRST time, I wrote more for SBQ than SEQ. Still hoping to pass Combined Humanities. At least a C6 oke? Or a better grade than F9? I want to say goodbye to those F9s that keep on pulling me down. And I always call myself stupid for that. Serious.

Tuesday I had POA P2 and Science (Physics). I really regretted NOT dropping POA at times. The only thing I did was the theory questions. Plus some questions. I DID open all the accounts required BUT nothing was filled in. OH BANK RECON ; the tick tick, circle circle, according to Mrs Cheah. I COMPLETELY forget everything..
Oke Physics. It is my only do-able paper so far. And one of the question is EXACTLY the same question as the 2006 O'Levels paper. The only question I did the night before. Then I feel asleep. *MY WEAKNESS IS I CAN'T MUG AT NIGHT. ESPECIALLY WHILE LYING ON MY BED*

Just now I had 3 papers. Science (Chemistry), Geography P2 and POA P1.
I can't do any of the papers. SERIOUS. Sighs. STILL, I won't give up oke? I must get distinction for my Combined Science.

Hmm. Oke. A story ; RANDOM ;
Just now before POA P1. There's this someone who confidently walk into the hall with only a pen and a calculator. An announcement was made : "You should have you pencil and eraser for your paper later". Then that someone go and grab the pencil and eraser from outside. HAHAH. After that, the pen was kept in the pocket. Then.. That someone asked me why I need a pen (after realising that we need to shade on an OTAS) I was like : "aku punya pasal la". After question paper was given, that someone look at me, took out the pen from the pocket and smile t me.
SEE, WE NEED THE PEN OKE? JADI AKU TAK SLENGER, KAU YG SLENGER, fiQo! ((:
No offence oke?

And I don't see how people can sleep during exams. Sighs.

Oke, esok da puasa. Aku plan nak belajar lepas sahur. Tak tdo lagi lepas sahur. OKE BEST. && aku seriously perlukan sesuatu yang takkan buat aku ngantuk. OKE??

TAG REPLIES ;

zahhhh: sweetheart, just know that I'm still here as a friend , my love (: I will never walk out of your life, never (: BE STRONG. If i can, so can YOU !

- YUPS. and thanks. i sayaaaang you too oke. don't walk out of my life ehs. and who knows one day we will be mugging partner. ((: I'll be strong.

zoohyrahh: HELLO . tks for RElinking me . haha . anyways , gd luck for ur papers yea ? haha . okok. see you in sch . =))

- thanks zuzu ; hees. cya

THANK YOU FEENA. AKU SAYAAAANG KAU OKEH?!

2007-09-08T22:40:00.001+08:00

WARNING : THE POST IS JUST A REDUNDANT POST..

i got TAUFIK - ed.
haha.

YESTERDAY..

I rushed home from Bedok Library to catch the Pertandingan Klasik Nusantara @ RTM1 that is telecasted live. I wanted to watch the contestants from Singapore, Elfee & Hariani. So, I sit in front of the TV and watched the whole show. After all the contestants sang plus some additional performances, there are more performances. All singers sang the classic malay songs, which some of them I haven't heard before. Anyway, the show got more dead towards the end. Felt like switching off the TV but the whole idea of watching it is to know the results. HAHA. BUT after a commercial break, a voice caught my attention la seh. I was doing some other stuffs when this familiar voice, which i LOVE since FOREVER made me stare at the screen again la seh. I lifted my head and I saw TAUFIK BATISAH. In the TV of course. (:
So..

ME : Ma, TAUFIK! *feeling excited*
MUM : are you sure? he looked fat.
ME : hmm. yeah. (cos i saw his name on the screen and i saw that face on TV)
just then, bro opened the room door..
ME : abang, Taufik..
BRO : Taufik?? walks in & watched the performance.

Sighs. At last, I see him somewhere.
I miss last year, idol chasing like almost every month (provided ada event)
BUT, i resigned from that cos I have better things to do..
Like mugging hard for O's?? *senyum2 kambing*

Oh, anyway, Elfee menang la seh. Thats for male.
Lagu Sumbangsih sikit pun tak sumbang. Malah telah memikat hati juri-juri yang ada. Hees..
and Hariani got third for the female.
CONGRATULATIONS!!~

DONT MIND THIS POST COS I FEEL SO RANDOM.
OH, I MEAN THE WHOLE IDEA OF THIS POST IS TO BLOG BOUT TAUFIK.
hahahaha.

apa nak buat, once a FIKNATIC, always a FIKNATIC.

My September Holidays are spent in the Bedok Library. I've started on everything. Except for HISTORY. padahal history on monday la seh. dan sumpah aku tak tauu satu benda pun.

GIRL, YOU CAN'T WALK OUT OF MY LIFE JUST LIKE THAT. AND I KNOW THAT YOU
DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ME EVER.. SORRY.

forget it then ,

2007-09-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

Oh well. Its all MY fault.

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Btw, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY BESTF SYINAH. (:
Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki.
Study hard & hopefully we will pass the big O's with flying colours okay?
Oh ya, last long with your 'Abang Arsyad' okay?
da lebih setahun tuu, so apa2 rintangan harus dihadapi dgn tabah k girl..?
I'll be there for you always no matter what. (though I know you have your Mr. BF)
Psst: Arsyad, you better take good care of her or else I'll kill you okay?
HAHAHA.

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On second thought, I really hope that I WON'T get selected to go for CI course. & I mean it. I don't see a need to go when I know I won't be happy if I get posted back to the unit. Hah.

nur shafeena, hope you are reading this.

i didn't mean to say those things to you just now. didn't mean to ask you to get out of my life. i'm stressed, and you said all those things to me. i got more agitated with all that. i promise you once that we won't argue anymore. but here we go again. didn't mean to put down the phone just like that yesterday. and i didn't mean to let my phone ring till i got seven missed calls from you. its all my fault. i know. 'that person' who is now controlling my life is still here in my soul. not ready to leave. cos all the things that are weighing me down are still bugging me. i don't know who to talk to. and i don't know why i don't want to talk to you. i'm upset with everything, especially the results of all the harsh things that i said to you. i feel that nobody can understand me. i've been trying to smile even though its hard. i've been meeting twins everyday. and i never wish to share what had happened between us. i faked my laugh and smile. cos i want to feel better. i don't want to get distracted with all these. i'm juggling studies and our problems. yet you are complaining. i don't have the heart to blame you for all that. i know you have feelings too. i don't wish to go on further. if you think its better to end here. its up to you. i respect your decision. thanks for everything.

LOVE,

someone you called bestf.

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tanjinhui : sorry for neglecting you. i hope you understand. take care bro.

&i think that i miss YOU. ~~oqif~~

syaz ; i'll make it tru the O's. no worries. HUGS. :D

gone

2007-08-31T12:48:00.000+08:00

Ever felt this way?
Where you can't find the right person to talk to.
No, you don't understand.
And no one can understand.

For once, I felt like giving up. Then the ten years will go down the drain.
GET THE DRIFT, PEOPLE?
go figure what I'm hinting at.

& I thought you understand.
I really need talk to you.
Yes, YOU.

2007-08-24T19:14:00.001+08:00

I had my Prelims Science practical yesterday. It was a fiasco because I didn't have the time to draw the table and graph for Physics. In addition to looking at the wrong place while doing observation. That really took up my time. Enough. Don't remind me of the practical.

Anyway, thank you Sir Han Teck and the new batch of NCOs for the 'Welcome Party' just now. I was about to leave the school with bestf, Feena when they called out my name and ran towards me with bottles of water. I tried to ran away but they came from the other side of the fernery. The next thing I know is I got wet in front of the Guard Post. Asked Jin Hui to take my bag away because my phone is inside. [ Jin Hui, I know I have a heavy bag. (: ] I ran to them I hugged my Unit's new OIC, Adeline. Hahah. She got wet too. Ohh, I missed the fun with them. Serious. Oh, that 'Welcome Party' is to thank me to signing up for CI course. [ Yes Feena, I did sign up for CI course. I apologise for not telling you. Thought of keeping it a secret till I really pass it. ] With that, I'm more determined to come back. I will also make it through the course, no matter how tough it will be. BNSS NPCC Unit, I'll be back next year. Hopefully. (:(:

Oh yeah, bestf ku Feena, thanks for running away when I got wet just now.. (:
I forgive you wrong doings. Promise me that you won't do all those things again. A circle is a round with no end. Thats how long i want our friendship to last. Kan bestf ku Feena??

Pluss, my bestf Syinah, stop teasing me ok? Lets just concentrate on O'levels. We can talk bout that after O's okay? HAHAHAH. (:

again. (:

2007-08-14T19:03:00.001+08:00

I'm re-taking my Malay Paper.
Highly recommended my Cikgu Amir. (:

distinction, here i come..

2007-08-13T19:06:00.000+08:00

Oke, I got my results just now. I mean my Malay O'levels results.
& as I predicted, I won't get a distinction. So yeah. And Cikgu Amir must strangle me cos I didn't get distinction. A1/A2 student getting a B3 for O'levels. NVMD. Still, I'm not re-taking. Though I want the distinction badly.. I had a good cry during lunch.. (:

Oke, that over.

And I've submitted my name to Mr Chua. It means that I'm going for CI course. I don't know if I've made a right choice or not..

And, I'm having English O'levels Oral tmr.
Wish me luck..

My Fiknatic Sistaz got B3 too. So we are the B3 gang kan Iffa. (:

shafiq : i seriously think that you shld retake the paper.. (:

.mal

relieved

2007-08-08T20:35:00.000+08:00

Hellos. ;__

Sorry for the real lack of updates.
I had lesser time each day.
Lessons finishing late.
Staying back ater lessons to finish up hmwk & study.
Sighs.

And HIGHLIGHTS,

my MALAY O'LEVELS results on Monday if i'm not mistaken.
ENGLISH O'LEVELS ORAL on Tuesday
Prelim SCIENCE practical the following Tuesday.
Prelim Schedule OUT! = MUG to the power of infinity. (:

Sighs.

And, class tee was a BLAST. Even though a lot of problems faced my me, Sabariah, Hakim Y and the others involved. Thanks to MUHAIMIN for designing this year's shirt, though there's a spelling error to Khairudin's name. Still, I appreciate all that. I almost gave up on the shirt, nearly cried and all that. And its not easy to do all these. Handling with hundreds over bucks to pay for all the costs. Bla bla. You guys still don't understand. By telling me all the redundant stuffs which just help contribute to my problems. "Thanks people"

I 'm not in the mood to blog further.

RHD & POP!

2007-07-21T10:56:00.000+08:00

" You know I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing, I'm findin' it hard to do anything.

You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm going through,
I just Can't Smile Without You. "

Back with updates.
I POP-ed ytd.
& ytd was RHD too.

Woke up early ytd.
I got ready & met Sabariah at bus stop.
Almost late.
Hees.

We had a really bad day ytd. esp me!
I mean my class.
Got scolding by Mdm Tao.
Oh ya, btw, she wore my baju songket.
Thats my last year's baju raya.
Oke back to the topic.
The class didn't hand in the maths hmwk due ytd.
Including me. Hahas.
I wasted my time collecting the Chem hmwk which is dued by 8am.
Went down to pass it to Mrs Yeow.
When I got back to class, was told that Mdm Haliza wants the Prom Night Survey form.
OMG! I didn't bring the list as i didn't bring my file.
I got so panic.
Asked for another class list & quickly go round asking classmates to sign.
We had geog test & i really dun feel like doing.
I gave up on the qns.
After geog, went arnd looking for Msm Haliza.
I dun want the class to be deprived of having Prom if I didn't pass the form.
Its my fault anyway.
Went to office & bla bla bla.
Had to sent Jia Shen down to office for time-out ; refuse to do work.
I got really tired of going up & down.
Its only 9am by that time.

Blablabla.
Was supposed to go arnd the school for some kind of exhibition or smthg.
But we just stayed in class & took pics.
Hahahaha.
So here we go!

there are still more class pics. waiting for the pics to be passed arnd.

after school ;

& yeah, JINHUI = BROTHER ,

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Went home, bathe & got changed.
Had maths remedial.
Went for English & left half-way.
Proceed for POP.

Its a very different ocassion.
There's no parade.
But concert the whole way.

Sec2s, i LOVE your performance.
I love you guys to bits & pieces.
No matter which NCOs take over my place, please work well with them.
I can't be there with you guys.
Be a nice & good NCOs in future.
Turn up for every parade.
Take care peeps.

Sec1s performance was great.
& i love it too.

Still, new batch of NCOs performances was a blast.
Thanks For the Memories?
Oke.
Haha.
Sec3s, run the unit well.
No matter what postings you guys got, you guys will still make a difference to the unit.
Rmbr that.

The greatest gift that i got ytd is, my SSGT rank.
FINALLY.
plus the small token from the unit.
and, the note from SI RenWei, who can't be with us, to the outgoing batch of NCOs.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
20072007 ; the day i leave the unit.

Here's some of the pics.

Slack for a while after being dismissed.
& when we got bored....

went home with feena, aida & aisya plus raiyan, the cadet who live a few blocks away from me.
feena & twins disturbed me of getting stucked in the lift.
tak baik seh korang..
i'm safe anyway.

OKE, TILL HERE. (:
rmbr this ;

POP-ing

2007-07-14T16:22:00.000+08:00

POP is in SIX days time.
PLEASE, i dun want to leave the unit YET!
ncos that is POP-ing, can we wear full-u please?
LAST TIME OKE?
pleasee??

RHD is also in SIX days time.

will be back with updates.

no, i dun want

2007-07-08T13:58:00.000+08:00

Hey ya.
Again, lack of updates.
SORRY.

Anw, when I think about it, I dun want to have my Passing Out Parade (POP) at all.
I love my cadets so much, especially the sec2 and some of the sec3.
I have so much fun with them.
Parades, campcrafts, special parades like Speech Day & NDP.
Too much to mention.
POP will be soon, very soon.
And I heard it will be this month.
NO!
But I can do nothing.
O'levels be soon, too.
I have to study for that.
To the new batch of NCOs, run the unit well.
Sec4s & your SIs won'tbe there for parades anymore.

And i want to kill that guy who caused unhappiness in my life.
DAMN YOU.

i find no joy when i'm with my classmates anymore.

Till here.

youth day

2007-07-02T11:25:00.000+08:00

Hellos.

Again, sorry for the lack of updates. I'm busy.
And I'm trying my best to stay focus.

Anw, my Malay O'Levels Oral is tmr. Omg.
I really hope to do pretty well.
Cos i still want my distinction.
Just wish me luck.

I browsed tru the FS makeover pics just now.
visit our site klw berminat ehs.
go click 'sistaz site' from my links if you want to see.

I'm going out later with twins plus feena.
Going to study.
Yay.
LOVES.
feena is love too. (:(:(:

girl, thank you for making it more obvious just now. why dun you just make a public announcement telling the whole world that you hate me now? rather than exiting a mass chat at msn with out saying anything. WHATEVER LA EHK! i dunno whats wrong with you. thank you. from now, i dun know you anymore.

PLUS : to my newbatch of NCOs, run the whole unit well. & train them well oke? those taking over my squad, just have more patience. i so LOVE you guys.
ps: jin hui, dun worry bout postings. (: all the best.

Till here.

2007-06-26T19:39:00.000+08:00

Hellos.

Sorry for the lack of updates.
Its alr term 3. & i can't believe that its alr term 3.
It means that less time and more mugging.
Less 3 months left.

Oke shut up.
I dun want to stress up.

Anw, I so hate the new timetable.
Imagine THIS ;

Having a recess at 8.30am. Thats when I'm having my recess on Mondays. Its like after one period of Maths and going for recess. & the next break is at 12.30. Slengerrs.
Having PE after school. & its not at 2pm or something. Its at 4pm. Thats on Tuesdays.
Having 2hrs of English on Mondays and Tuesday. I don't really mind this. Cos its fun. lagi-lagi bila ada lesson kat commerce room. fuhh. air-conditioned beb!
Having POA everyday. One period on Mondays, Thursdays and Fridays. The rest of the days are double periods. BORING.
Double periods of Humanities everyday. tuu pun kalau takde extra lessons after school on Tuesday. BORING.

& i'm fine with the rest of the time table arrangements.

plus i dont want to say anything else. cos i want to go to Poly with L1R4 less than 15. Hahas. I wanna get to Mass Comm with a distinction for English. I believe I can. (:(:(:

No more time to waste okeh?

esok ada Annual Youth Carnival ah. Yay. Main netball. plus nak tgk Ms.Faizah main netball juga. Hahas. BNSS Idol? Hees.

Anw, I had fun with Fiknatics Sistaz last Sunday. I can't wait to see the photos of our makeover. Catch up with you guys again next time okeh? I had to leave early that day for English class ah. Sorry sistaz. (:
to the adik-adiks of FS ; study hard & do well for O'Levels okeh? We'll pass well. InsyaAllah.

Till here.

Take cares.

2007-06-19T19:45:00.000+08:00

Hellos.

Sorry for the lack of updates. I'm busy with some stuffs. So yeah. I've been having English lessons almost everyday since Thursday. I want it this way. I wanna score well for English. It means that I went to Mdm. Rogayah's house during the weekends. Its fun. & i so love the cats. Hehes.

Oke. I went to Bedok library with the twins just now. We had to sit on the floor to do our work. So yeah. I simply love them so much.
with them, i felt like the third twin.
we dream together, esp with aisah.
we always think ahead of time.
we'll be there together one day.
YYY

Anyways. Holidays lessons are officially over today. Time to mug very hard. One month wasted just like that. Oke?
ps: all the textbooks that my classmates leave behind a door in the classroom are gone. & i'm so loving it man. serve them right. i wanted to tell tcher about that, but something is stopping me from doing so. oh, lousy chairman?

Whatever it is, I wanna continue watching My Girl (Korean Drama).
I can't wait for Sunday!
Makeover with FS. (:

girls, i miss you guys so much. i didn't mean to be this bad. i can't stop but to ignore you when you walked past me. you guys started it okeh? i'm too confused. someone care to listen to what i'm going through?

Till here.
Textbooks, here I come.
I mean after My Girl okeh?
(:(:

2007-06-13T09:06:00.000+08:00

Heys.

Sorry for not regularly updating. Hees.

I've been spending my holidays at my grandma's house. Hais. Nvmd.

And I'm going out to study with Aida & Aisah. Twins is love oke. LOLS.
I so love this two sisters okeh? They are always there for me. & our sarcasm plus the way we gossip bout people made me love them more. LOLS.
Oke, diam. (:

I want to finish up my holiday assignment asap. & start mugging also.

Till here?
Lazy to type ah.

phizie love

2007-06-10T19:32:00.000+08:00

Oke. They are back.

I'll just post a short one oke.

I went out to Vivo with my childhood friens, Phizie (Izaidah) ytd.

I had fun tho we didn't really talk much.

Hahas.

Phizie, your boyf will be back soon oke?

I'll countdown till tues with you. (:

I love you oke.

And yeah, it has been years since I met you.

I took this pic from your blog. & i placed the caption.

Till here.

missed you ppl

2007-06-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

Hellos. (:

Oke. Whatever. So not in the mood. I'm somehow confused. My mum says that i keep on hanging arnd with different people. Like so? I have many friends. Yeah. And I seriously need some people to talk to, especially some souls whom I called besties dumped me recently by not talking to me at all. So unfair. I don't want to elaborate. And shut up. Don't ask me further oke. Whoever ask bout thing will seriously get it from me.

&& ,
I had my Prelims English Oral yesterday. I thought it starts at 8am. So I woke up at 7am. I was packing my stuffs and I feeling like checking the timetable. And I saw that Oral starts at 7.30am. So I just quickly ironed my uniform, take a bath and got ready for school. I left home at 7.30am. I was really rushing to school. And I reached 10mins later. Phew! Luckily I stay near my school. Hahs. I was sweating and I managed to cool down before my turn. I was the fifth person. Wahh. I seriously didn't prepare anything. Especially the picture discussion. However, I think that this Oral is better than my Mid-Year's Oral. And Ms Kong (my Oral invigilator) said that I gave good ideas during the conversation. I'm really hoping to score for this Oral.

Went to Techview after Oral to wait till Physics starts. Physics is funn, as usual.

I went to grandma's house after lessons.

And today.
Hmm. Had Maths and Chemistry. Nothing really interesting happened. And I had fun with the girls just now. I love you people oke. And Zahrah, you really rocks la. Hahaha. Su, its nice talking to you too. (:

I tuned in to Era just now to listen to APM that is not being telecast on TV live tonight. And almost everyone is not happy bout that. Haha. And, Taufik didn't win the Most Popular Male Artist. Damn! Oke, shut up.

*iseriouslyenvyseeingpeoplehavingfunwithpeopletheycallbestfriends*

Yay, cos my two beloved cadets will be back tmr! JinHui<3 & Feena<3.
I should have fun with you guys at Genting & KL too. But nvmd, you guys are coming back alr.
I really miss you guys. Msg me oke?
YYYYYYY (:

& i don't want to make this colourful anymore.

tc lovelies. <3

2007-06-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

Hellos!`

Oke. I'm forced to update. Hahah. Oke, lets start.

I went to AziQa Sister's wedding on Sunday. You know, we, being Fiknatics Sisters(FS), will always be late. Haha. We reached there at almost 5, where the reception is almost over. Haha. Malu sey kiter. Only the family members are left. ((:
BUT, AziQa & her sis is so JAMBU la. ((:
And we left after eating.

I feel like a belo when i walked into Popular, dressed so nicely. Some more must walk alone. Haha. (:

And, I watched Shrek 3 yesterday. (:
I so LOVE the puss in boots. & donkey too.
Hahahaha.

Lessons are quite boring ah.
I dun want to blog further.
Cous YANTI-KUS, see, at least i update alr ahh.

speechless -

2007-05-31T18:12:00.000+08:00

HELLOS !

i wanna blog okeh.
before i start, i wanna say something.
i sprained my left ankle last night.
its almost one year since i sprain my right ankle.
now, the left one.
funny ah.
hahaha. (:

oke, back to blogging.

had lessons yesterday.
it was oke.
had history.
i tried my best to pay attention.
but somehow i can understand the topic taught.
good girl kan?
hahahaha. (:

went for break and had chemistry lessons.
it was oke la.
mrs yeow is trying to make the class more lively.
(:

geog class is obviously funn.
lazy to elaborate more on that.

after class, i called my Sunshine.
i took 59 and i swear that i must wait for like 15mins.
lmbt seh.
so i went to her house.
sit down and talk and gossip.
MR.HOT HOT! (:

so, we left for grandma's house at 4 plus.
we walked to Tampines Interchange and took 10 to Tlk Blangah.
you people must try having that journey.
we sat in the bus for more that one and half hours.
hahaha.
in the bus, i'm bored.
so while we are listening to Ria, i decided to tune in to TVmobile.
haha.
so we listened to PCK.
i know, Sunshine got irritated.
i know, i have no life.

we reached at arnd 6.
sit down and talk
and bla bla bla.
left at arnd ten.

in the end,
i have no idea why i am writing all these.
HAHAHA

i wanna study now.
i'm blessed having my true friends.(:

oh heyyos

2007-05-29T20:10:00.000+08:00

ohh heyyos. (:

Malay O-levels Paper One & Two is over.
Yay-ness?
Haha.
Erm. Papers are quite managable.
I so dun like the kefahaman (comprehension) & surat kiriman (letter writing)
Hahha.
Overall, its oke.
Can i like get a distinction?
InsyaAllah.

Anw.
I had fun today & yesterday.
I met my little miss sunshine *see, i upgraded your name uhh*
& Mak Long.
Went to expo & jalan-jalan.
Haha.
Mak Long so rocks la.

Today, went to TM.
bought some stuffs den proceed to Yanti's house.
it was so fun, looking at people dyeing hair.
*maybe i'm weird when i say its fun*
Buka salon ehh cous.

Cous, i haven't pulang ke jalan yang lurus
ahh.
i haven't luruskan rambut.

LOLS.
*i still want YOUR 12-inch pen from Brunei.*

Haha.

Yang tak best nyer adalah....

.. Esok ader class. ((:

Tmr I'm meeting sunshine & Mak Long after class, maybe.
Den kiter gi rumah nenek sama-sama eh?

Lazy to blog further.
Tc peeps. (:

omg

2007-05-24T17:08:00.000+08:00

Hellos !`

i got back my report book back just now.
disappointing results.
i'll work hard.
oke?
will work hard.
AND ~
thank you people for telling me its oke when i got my results.
its only mid-year.
still have time to buck up.

anw, malay paper is round the corner.
hmm.
its on monday.
4 more days?
just wish me all the best oke?
i must score my distinction. (:

and.
i want to try blogging in perfect english and malay can?
haha.

oke GO!~

Hari peperiksaan bagi kertas melayu peringkat 'O' semakin dekat. Hatiku kini berdegup kencang. Walaupun agak mudah bagiku untuk mendapatkan markah yang tinggi, namun aku tidak berasa yakin dengan semua itu. Aku hanya dapat mengharapkan yang terbaik.
chey chey chey.
mcm janggal ah blog mcm nie.

oke takpe. lagi sikit.

*don't act as if you're so beautiful, girl.
you're scared, that why.
you won't be hiding yourself by making it so private for your 'wonderful' friends if you think you are right.
i have nothing against you.
but i simply think that you are too much.
hahahaha.*

feena, aku da baca msg kau.
takpe, esok aku tau nak buat apa.

AND
i so dislike
smart people who
look down
others.
i
dislike the attitude
of you and
you.
you guys
choose to ignore
us
eh?
nvmd.
i always believe that karma
will hit you guys
back.
and
thanks syarinah for
staying by me all these
while.
i so
love you
oke.

till here?

ps: & i love you too.
<3

2007-05-13T19:35:00.000+08:00

Heys, sorry for not updating for a very long time.
Hmm. Exams are over.

And now i'm going through a workshop by the Adam Khoo Learning Technologies Group. Aziqa, i haven't met adam in the past two sessions. But i met Amin. (:
Anw, the sessions are fun. There's three trainers. Leroy, Amin and Gary. Haha.
I'm like somehow motivated to score well for O'levels.
The last session is tmr.
The only thing I don't like about the workshop is, I must take attendance 3 times a day. First in the morning, after lunch and after dinner. Thats the thing about being the Chairman of the class. And, having two Vice-Chairmans doesn't work AT ALL. So what if Mdm Tao gave me two v-chairs, hoping to lighten my burden. They are practically giving all their jobs to me. Nvmd. Its oke.

Anw, i miss talking to Jin Hui Bro! Haha.

And, after some soul searching (LOLS). I decided to let go. I never wanna stay on here. Pretending to be happy. But NOT. Seeing you happy, but I'm not. I'm confused. Its gone just like that. I should have taken note of that earlier. Oke, I'll learn from here. Don't wanna repeat the mistake again.

I miss talking to YOU too. I don't know why we are talking less these days.
Till here.

helo;

2007-04-27T17:20:00.000+08:00

hellos ;

oke. just a short one oke.

was told that O'Levels will begin on the 22 Oct. It ends on 2 Nov.
kelakar ke apa sak?
stresskan org jer.
this kinda piss me off.

and there's a workshop by adam khoo after exams.
yay-ness?

anw, i'm upset.
i think i need someone to talk to.
are you happy now?

i've got nothing to just now.say now.
though i have a lot to say.

thanks la ehk.

2007-04-21T10:49:00.000+08:00

hellus !`

&i have to say that my English & Malay paper 1 is on monday. plus SS paper on tuesday.

i must do very well for malay to know where's my standard by now.
oh, malay O's paper is in 37days time.
plainly OMG.

&&
i'm dumb at my combined humans, trust me.
so i have no idea how to store 4 chapters of SS in my brain by ~~tues~~.
i can't blame the tcher but myself.
and trust me also, when i say i wanna pay attention during humans class.
cos i will fail to do so cos tcher will start nagging at the smallest thing happening in class.
hais.
i just need to to study & study.
oh, esp hist. the worst subject ever.

&& OOOH.
i must start now.
yeah, NOW.
cos i must revise the whole of my sec3 geog topics too.
omg.
can i like take O's next year.
hahaha. (:

i just need someone to talk to please.

&&i wanna meet PHIZIE ; my childhood & primary school friend soon.

2007-04-17T18:05:00.000+08:00

attention :

i'll update less now.
will be concentrating on

MID-YEAR ,,
MALAY O'LEVELS (in 41 days time)
O'LEVELS ; like duhh.

so yeah.
continue tagging.

&i love you people.

take care lovelies.

p/s:go study chemistry LAH!

oh, whatever

2007-04-14T10:28:00.000+08:00

heys. ;__-

sorry if i've not been updating these days. i'm busy mugging for mid-year. i swear! (:
haha. i've been like staying back after school to do hmwk & revision. and anyone wanna join me? (:

and oh, life is OH-KAY lah these days. && i swear i hate yesterday's after-parade event. before i elaborate on that, i wanna talk bout other stuffs.

i helped ILI to do some changes to her blogg. (: and happy blogging babe. haha.
&& i need to buck up on my History & Chemistry. topic on QA is killing me. hahaha.
and okay, back to yesterday.
here we go ,,

had lessons in the morning (oh, like duh)
ili & i had a good time teasing rahmah. -ili, its our secret kann? (:

after school, sat at study corner, finishing up my lesson plans for parade in the afternoon. it was raining heavily, like out of the sudden. so, there goes my plan! we can't pitch a tent (to train the sec3s for their upcoming ATC) its okay cos i'm not the one who's gonna conduct the tent-pitching lessons. haha.

okay, the sec1s wear full-u for the first time & i swear they are a bunch of weird people.

parade is okay. i somehow enjoy the campcraft lessons with my sec2s. but they didn't enjoy it. i felt insulted. (cos i'm the outfield specialist) and pt is fun (only when i'm leading the sec3s with the jog)

had mass debrief then after that was supposedly to have debrief at techview. while waiting for the rest, i argued with that guy, who always act like a big ~~fcuk~~. (i'm sorry but this time, my patience had exceeded the limits)

he asked me why i'm like not satisfied with him. being tired after the whole day, i was like, 'i'm lazy to talk to people like you'. &he tot that i'm scared thats why i dun wanna say. its like hello. your attitude sucks big time. and here you are acting like somehow innocent. sir asked you to conduct PT and not to shout at my cadets okay? everything is okay until you come at arnd 4 la ehk. my sec2s hate you okay? NOTE THAT! (i know that some of you may think that it is pathetic when i got angry when a person scolds my cadets. cos you dunno the whole story.) i shouted at this guy & he shouted back. i got so frustrated that i cried. i'm already too tired cos of lack of sleep & doing PT, then he wanna pick up a fight. go ~~fcuk~~ off la ehk. & sir saw the whole incident ; i guess.

thank god that cca has alr step down!!

when i started crying, i ran to the area near the office. i wanted to find ili. thank god she was standing there. she pulled me near the staircase and tried to make me feel better. somehow i feel better. thanks babe. anw, we left school to proceed to techview to have a meal before our night class. saw syahiir outside school(this guy rocks my socks). he asked me why i'm crying la. and he said something that made me laugh. haha. thanks bro!

had a meal then talked to jin hui. this is my bestest bro. thank you la ehk. i feel better.

&& i swear that mr charles barton's lesson is funn. and i smile & laugh a lot okay? it really made me feel better. (:

and walked to the bus stop with classmates. it was fun. & somehow hakim scare me from behind. i'm shouted but i'm not scared. i'm just shocked. there's a difference okay? and sorry hakim if whatever i did to you hurts you okay(the one where i tried to strangle you or stuff) haha. (:

from the bakery, walked home with dom & dan. i just can't wait to reach home by then. i'm too tired.

overall, its a wonderful day ; with wonderful people like my classmates with me.

andaiku tahu

2007-04-10T18:08:00.001+08:00

i liike this song la ehk.

andaiku tahu by ungu.

get that?

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Ku akan memohon tuhan tolong panjangkan umurku

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba masaku
Ku akan memohon tuhan jangan kau ambil nyawaku
Aku takut akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut dosa yg terus membayangiku

Andai ku tahu
Malaikatmu kan menjemputku
Izinkan aku mengucap kata taubat padamu
Aku takut akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut dosa yg terus membayangiku

Ampuni aku dari segala dosa dosaku
Ampuni aku menangis ku bertaubat padamu
Aku manusia yang takut neraka
Namun aku juga tak pantas disurga

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Izinkan aku mengucap kata taubat padamu
Aku takut akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut dosa yg terus membayangiku
Ampuni aku dari segala dosa dosaku
Ampuni aku menangis ku bertaubat padamu

;__-

and anw, i feel better by now. hmm.

kind of tired la today.

and i wanna make my post in future as colourful as ever.

can can?

till here.

mood swing

2007-04-07T14:08:00.000+08:00

heys. ;__-

okay. had geog test this morning. went to school quite early. and i swear that i'm not in the mood to talk to anyone. i only talked to rahmah and firdaus. & i'm sorry classmates if i didn't talk to you guys.

test was bloody difficult. and so gonna fail ; expected.

walked home after test. didn't talk much. i don't know why. seriously i don't know.

slacked for a while when i reached home. not in the mood to do anything.
UNTIL..

i walked out of my room, switched on the fan at my living room. sat on the floor and reached out for the unfolded clothes and begin to fold them before placing them in the respective cupboard. then, switched off the fan & sweep the carpet, living room and kitchen floor. went out to access area to sweep too. back to kitchen and wash all the dishes. and i don't know why i'm so in the mood to do housework. & i alr cleaned my room ytd. :

after that, i went to bro's room and switched on computer. and here i am blabbering and surfing aimlessly.

THEN..
hakim started conversation at msn.
he didn't come for the geog test in the morning but he knew i have mood swing. wonder who told him. but its okay.
to HAKIM ; thank you for your care & concern. again, trust me when i say you're nice. i'll be fine soon. i'll change. & i'll rmbr what you told me. take care of yourself too.
hakim = to the guy i once called bestf. (:
thank you hakim. somehow you made me smile & cry a little.

i must be back to my usual state. i must be the mal who is always cheerful and never fail to put up a smile.

till here?
i'm sorry if i won't be updating much. i must mug hard so i won't disappoint my family, esp my parents.

2007-04-05T18:10:00.000+08:00

heys. : __-

i need to talk to you. please.
where are you?

i know that i need to smile.

haix

2007-04-04T18:46:00.000+08:00

heyss.

had mood swing just now.
i dunno why la. ; __-

anw, read the thing below.

'' bukanku pinta segunung janji
tidak ku harap sinaran ini
cuma ku ingin setulus kasih
kasih yang kekal selamanya

memang ku rindu saat bersama mu
memang tak mampu melupakanmu
tapi ku tahu semua itu
tak akan kembali lagi ''

------------------------------------

i seriously dislike mrs chan. karot seh.
i refused to pay attention during POA. haha.
; __-
and aku nak ketawakan seseorang dengan secara evil.
hahahahahahahahah!!!

okay la. i wanna study geog and chemistry.

move on lah. ; __-
not me but you. (:

finally

2007-03-30T20:57:00.000+08:00

Hey hey.

finally speech day is OVER.

to the NPCC GOH CONTINGENT :
thank you for attending training everyday without fail this week. i appreciate it loads okay? things goes on smoothly just now. from rusuk to hormat, everything was perfect. all our efforts has paid off. training everyday for like 2 hours and going home late, doesn't matter anymore. as long as we know we can do it, it will be fine. i can see the joy in every of us after we berhenti after the march past. thank you a lot

to jinhui, thank you so much okay? i can't help but break down before parade just now. you know me best. thank for your concern. and you're a good contingent i/c okay? its over now.

i'm promoted to STAFF SERGEANT! and i'm just waiting for my rank. (:

i'm irritated with you la eh. jgn harap aku nak berbual ngan kau lagi. datang setakat buat fun fair pe. and everybody seems irritating.

sorry teachers if i'm abit slack this week. i know i failed to do my hmwk and hand in on time. esp geog. sorry mr. lee. i'm too tired after training everyday. i can concentrate better after the speech day. hopefully.

till here.
confused.

tired la

2007-03-23T19:49:00.000+08:00

HELLO.

sorry if my blog seems dead. i will be blogging less. maybe once a week. i need to concentrate more la.

hmm. i'm bloody tired this week.

i have speech day training almost everyday. haix. and i hate wednesday training. i reached home at 7 okie? and i have less time to study and revise.
the thing that i dislike most is that the GOH contingent consists of only 3 NCOs. me, aida and aisah. we were told that ALL NCOs will be involved. now, almost all of my sec2s are involved. apa seh. mepek kan. semua NCO mcm mepek. malas nak dtg kepe?

tired la ehk. i need some rest. then tmr have geog class.

i must
-polish my boots & badges.
-iron uniform.
-season my beret.

till here okay?

i dunno why i feel this way, --

had fun

2007-03-18T15:26:00.000+08:00

HELLO !

okay.
esok skola da buka.
mcm takde holiday seh.
haha!

anw, i had fun yesterday.
doing hmwk with classmates.
at airport.
haha.
erm.
went with rifhan, firdaus & khai.
i had FUN!
fhan, i want the pics.

i have lots of hmwk.
so till here okay?

bye.

updates

2007-03-14T18:54:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY. :))

i'm going ATF tmr!! yeah! although i'm lazy to go. ubin, here i come! and maybe it will be the last time i'm going ubin. :

hahah.

i must start doing homework plus revising. i promised myself and ~~him~~ to buck up. i dun wanna let anyone down with my results. serious.

i want to step down from cca ASAP! i don't care. its taking my time. nvmd, ten more weeks to go!

malay O'levels is in 75 more days okie? and my malay dropped to B3 when its supposed to be maintained at A1. and anw, its better than C5 for January. (:

met danial at bus stop before going to school. rifhan will be rather late, so we proceed on first. had physics practical. i don't what to do at first. haha. blur seh. ((:

after class went to eat at that kedai kopi near mcdonalds with some of my classmates. and these people are those who rocks my socks. hehee. sayaaaang korang tauu!!

was supposed to go back to school BUT me being me, turned out to be more BELO-ed after turning SIXTEEN. haha. i forget to bring my gloves and belt. haha. so went back home. buat penat jer bawak half u dari pagi. haha.

had speech day training. only for GOH la. and guess what. so little people turned up. like the hell la. we trained so hard and maybe the rest is having a good time at home. like what seh.

semua da macam merepek. malas nak layan. hohoho.

okie la.

maybe i should stop here.

take care lovelies.

i'm back

2007-03-13T11:19:00.000+08:00

hello. ((:

people, i'm back. BUT fyi, i'll blog less.

i know you people missed me right? *smack head for being thick skin.

ANYWAY.

HEY HEY.

i'm excited to blog.

okay. lots of things happening.
and sec1 npcc camp is OVER.
updates on camp ;;

the camp is bloody boring. sec1 is not enthu. AT ALL. sedih seh.
and guess what. ncos all like wth.
i'm getting bored with attitude of the ncos.
i can't wait to step down.
although i LOVE my cadets to bits and pieces of KOKO CRUNCH. ((:
i DON'T mind NOT getting the SSGT rank okay.
and i know some are surprised.
i don't care la.

i feel like using that four letter words to express my feelings.
BUT i'll replace it with other words
i'll use TAIK instead.
can?

TAIK LA.
people doing work and you're sleeping inside the room.
tired? we are tired too.
TAIK LA.
people doing work and you guys are happily talking and singing.
we are tired also okie?
and we are helping to clear up OUR mess.
so it means we must do it TOGETHER KAN?
TAIK LA.
you don't understand what i wanna say.
go improve you english so you can understand okay?
TAIK LA.
campfire didn't go on smoothly.
TAIK LA.
when you tried to do people's work. and claiming that you are tired after that.
TAIK LA.
you people didn't take intiative at all.
and OVERALL..
TAIK LA.
to MYSELF for throwing tantrums cos all these happen.
and i was being highlighted during de-brief session to change attitude.
TAIK LA semua.

aku seriously tak suka.

i wanna bathe and ready for lessons.
bye.

2007-02-18T14:02:00.000+08:00

hello.

i will be shutting down this blog soon.

so yeah.

blogging

2007-02-06T17:48:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

Physics test just now is 0kay la. Hmphh. Hope can pass so that I don't need to attend "An Afternoon With Ms. Faizah". Haha.

Erm. Tired la.

Okay, my blog may be dead these few days. So yeah. I'm thinking of changing blog. I'll update you people soon okay? ((:

i missed the old times. and i really want things to be like before. i can't bear looking at you and pretending to be happy. i'm not. i'm better with you. i enjoyed your company cos you understand me best. i've found out the reason why all these happened. i never want things to turn out this way. i missed the old you. i can only observe you from far and laugh at your silly jokes. i regretted everything but nothing could be done. i was dumb. yeah, i was dumb. i was dumb for not appreciating you. i was dumb for hurting your feelings. i was dumb for saying all those words to you. i was dumb to see you leave just like that. i am simply dumb enough right? i missed the days we had together. all the advice you gave me. all the nice things you say. i know that you won't be reading this, cos you don't even know that this blog exist. but i don't care. i can't help but to stare at you each time i have the chance to do so. i pretended to look away when you turned to my direction. we are still friends by now. but the feelings are not the same. regarding you like a bestie and just a friend is so different. i have to admit that. when i lost you for the first time, i thought that we can be like last time. i promised you that i'll be super nice to you. you were fine with that. yeah, we became close like last time, but its for only a few weeks. i didn't receive any updates of you. and soon, you send me all those msgs that made me cry while reading them. i trusted you and thought the things you said were real. that is when i lost you for the second time. but i just found out everything recently. i'm upset. and again, i pretended to be happy. cos i already promised myself to stop thinking and crying for you. i had wished that we can be close like last time. but its just a dream. i liked the way you are. seriously. you are that type of outgoing person. i had wanted us to be close for the third time. but again, i'm too afraid of losing you for the third time. i don't wish history to reapeat again. when i talk to you now, i actually have some things to say. but i don't know how to put it all across to you. nvmd. let me just keep this to myself. i should stop blabbering bout you. cos i don't wish to be reminded of a good friend like you. till here, love <3, malliennah`

Okay. Till here. Wanna do hmwk. ((:
Take care lovely people.

bestie's bdae.

2007-02-03T12:49:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

Hey hey. Its my bestie's birthday la.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NADIA.

My bestie da 16. Mine is in one month's time. Haha. ((:

And blogger is irritating cos it keeps on forcing me to change to the new blogger. Haix.

Later meeting FeeQah to ask her to pass the present to bestie. My sch skirt ngah cuci ah. If not can masuk sch alr. Hahaah. ((:

i don't know why I feel this way. when i look at you, i get the same old feeling.

Till here.

hey hey ppl.

2007-02-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

Ytd I went to Tampines and Simei alone okay? Haix. Was supposed to meet my Sunshine, but den tak jadi. Haix. Went to Tampines to look for Human Geog revision guide. Its not available, so I went to Simei. Got it. Den go back to Tampines to buy that bag from ILT. Goodness, the bag was once $50 and I was so close to buying it. But I didn't. ((: And you know what, now its selling at only $20. Isn't that cool? LOLS.

I find today very tiring. Went for morning duty. Heck. Den had silent reading at quadrangle. Its so irritating can? I read practically the whole Malay newspaper. Hehe. Oh, my first page of Chem LA is almost empty. I can do the qn on ester. ONLY! Haha.

Lessons are fine except that I forgot to bring my vocab book to English class. And I didn't pay attention in Humans class as usual. Geog test is okay la. Hopefully can pass. Yeah.

Oh ya, update on Muster Parade and the whole training session!!

Muster Parade is okay. Nicholas screw up on the NPCC pledge and I don't blame him for that. Yeah. Hopefully I pass the Muster Parade cos the passing marks is 7 and the total marks is 10. How amazing can it be.

My Sec.2 squad today very slack ah. Was really disappointed. Yeah. Scolded them so many times. But the training gets better towards the end. And punishment cum PT is fun la. Haha. Whatever it is, I still LOVE my cadets la. ((:

Took Dismissal and I must shout 'BERSURAI' for like four times. SHIT. And again, I forget to say 'Thank You Sir' after asking for permission to dismiss the parade from the OC.

I got my CD and ATC badge. AT LAST SEH! Especially the the CD badge. Since 2005 okay I waited. Haha.

Rusydi refused to attend the 'An Afternoon With Ms. Faizah'. So, I made a deal with him. I will teach him Physics and he will teach me Chemistry. We went to staff room to tell Ms. Faizah that he will not be attending the remedial class cos we got de-brief session. And he also told Ms. Faizah bout the deal we made. Then we went off for de-brief. And guess what, some of my Sec.2 cadets thought that he is my bf. Lols. Cos they saw us walking together. Yeah, I was with him the whole of today. So, he explained everything to those people. Hahaha. We are like soooo good friends. ((:

After de-brief, we went for English night class. It was okay la. Erm. And Rusydi run away from Ms.Faizah when we go back to school for night class. It was funny. Then we went arnd the school to look for classmates. And I was the only girl before Rifhan and Saadah came. But overall its fun la. I will go night class again next week.

don't make it a point to read my blog just to know whats going on in my life. i'm better without you. and i miss the other someone. not you.
p/s:i'm not refering to you. ((:

Erm. Till here?

got it

2007-01-31T18:53:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I just came back from Tampines.

I was with FeeQah the whole afternoon. ((: We went 'shopping' for Nadia's present. And we got it! ((:

Erm.

Wanna go study for Geography test. And I think I should shut up for the whole day tmr. How bout that?

I'm meeting Sunshine Yanti tmr, hopefully.

My karangan ekspositiori marks is so bad. Nvmd.

i still miss you. and i wished that you were here. only if i had treated you so nicely last time. so yeah.

Till here?

ok.

2007-01-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

Okay, I'm bored. Just a quick one can?

Oh shit, I forget what to blog about. I have a lot to blog about seh.

SHIT!

i knew everything alr. thank you. i still miss you okay.

Till here?

i want to have a long post.

2007-01-27T16:17:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

My second post today. Hehe.

I want to blog a very long post can? I'll try okay.

Erm. Okay.

Frankly speaking, I LOVE my Sec2 squad so much. Cadets like Raiyan and Jing Sheng especially. They are like my favourite cadets la. Hehe. Erm. Okay, Raiyan, he's like the nicest la. When I walked in front of NP room ytd before going to NYP, he begged me not to go. I don't have any other choice what. Its like a compulsory trip. So I tell him nicely. I told him to just go through parade without me for a day. Then I left the place soon after. Hehe. Jing Sheng, he's to shy to show his leadership qualities la. I know he really got the potential. Really. Haha. Erm. My Sec2 squad really make my stay as an NCO a very pleasent one. Hehe. And to the four girls in the squad, don't be shy la. Have confidence in yourself. Hehe.

Okay, when I saw the name list of NCOs taking the upcoming Muster Parades, I didn't see the whole 22 NCOs name. According to Han Teck Sir, those names which are not included will just stay as Sergeant. No chance of getting a Staff. And out of the many names included, only 8 will make it to Staff Sergeant. Hehe. So yeah. I'm gonna make it to Staff Sergeant. insya-allah.

I can't wait to step down from CCA so that I can concentrate more on my studies. However, I don't wish to part with all the lovely people from the unit just yet. Especially my Sec2 squad, obviously. And some of the cadets from the Sec3 squad. Haix. Eh, my this entry is filled with something related to NPCC kan? Can I move on to another topic. Hahaha.

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I officially dislike Combined Humanities. How bout that. Haha. But still, I'm gonna try to pass that subject. Hehe. Imagine sitting in the class and the teacher keeps on repeating the same thing over and over again. And I don't mind if its about the topic she's teaching, but the way we behave in class. The more she talk, the more we don't listen. That's how my class 'rocks' in Combined Humanities class.

And arnd 13 people dropped POA alr. I hope I'll be the next. But no one wants to drop Core Geography. Haha. Its easy, if you study on your own. And not listening to Mr. Kevin Lee. Haha. And he remembered my name alr la. Hahaha.

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I dislike this feeling of being abandoned by a close friend after he or she have someone new. That situation so sucks. And I've went through that so many times. I have my feelings too okay? I conclude that these people treat me like a piece of sh*t. Hey, wake up la. Why bother to find me only when you need me help? That's such a stupid nonsensical thing to do. Am I an angel who can help you everytime you need help. Or am I an information counter where you can ask me anything you want at your own pleasure time? That feeling so sucks okay. I'm trying not to use any vulgarities here cos I never use vulgarities. But I really dislike that particular childish attitude. Wake up la people. I don't want to go through this anymore. Its enough. Definately enough. I have my feelings too, remember that.

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I'm tired of everything. I need some revision. ((:
Till here?

missed you loads

2007-01-27T09:38:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

The NYP visit yesterday is a boring one. Yeah. Anw, I'm interested in the Hospitality and Resort Management course in NYP. But the Leisure and Resort Management course in TP interest me more. So yeah. I must work hard to get them. And I think many wants that course also. Haha.

And I wished that I could stay back at NYP to watch Taufik's performance. Haix. I haven't met him for such a long time okay. Hahaa. Nvmd, one day, I will. Lols.

Erm.

i'm glad that we are like last time. we can talk and joke arnd like nobody's business. and forget all about our past. i missed calling you bestie and stuff. but i blessed having you back, although only as a friend. it makes a difference. whatever happens, i just want you to know that i missed those days a lot. and having no guys close to me makes me better la. Haha.

Anw, I had fun talking to my Sec2 cadets ytd. I love them so much. Haha.
And meeting till 7.30 pm at Techview. Wow. I'm the 2IC for Muster Parade on 2nd Feb. And PC for dismissal on the same day. Hope that Nicholas will do a very good job. Really!

Till here?

sad la.

2007-01-25T17:07:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm having kind of a mixed feelings. I'm happy plus sad. Haix. There are three reasons why I'm sad la. I'm happy for so many reasons. ((:

First, I was being 'scolded' by Cikgu Amir, my Malay teacher, cos of my performance in the first practice paper. Haix. Its badly done. Seriously. And I passed by only 5.5 marks. Thats like arnd 58% Imagine that? Thats so not my standard okay? I should be getting like 70% and above. Haix. Cikgu really wants my to buck up. Cos I'm left with only 4 months left. I guess he's disappointed. Is he? Dunno ah. Erm. Then the karangan ekspositori that I just hand up just now is like, yeah, plain. The topic is not so clear. What will you write if you get this topic, "Ibu bapa remaja dewasa ini kurang memberi motivasi kepada anak-anak remaja mereka". If you were us, what will you do? I hope that I will score much much better for the second practice paper. Really!

Second, my Cous Yanti the Sunshine starts work tomorrow. I'm happy plus sad. Happy cos she got a job after like 3 months finding a job. And I'm sad cos I will meet her less. Thought of meeting her next week after school or whatever. Anyway Cous, work well okay. I miss you always.

Erm. And I missed my kecorables cousins too. ((:

Third, I failed my POA test. Thats like my first test that I failed this year. I expected it. And I wanna drop. And concentrate on Maths. Cos those who dropped POA will have extra Maths lessons. Isn't that like an advantage? And will try asking my parents tonight bout dropping POA. And Hakim heard me wanting to drop POA, so he asked for my POA books and dropped it to the floor. Easy ain't it? Haha.

Okay, why I'm happy eh?

First, I'm like talking to my that particular friend alr. I'm so glad. And we talked a lot okay. Haha. Is it a good thing or bad? ((:

Second, tomorrow no need to go for training. Thanks to the NYP Visit. Yay. But next week, its time for me to take Muster Parade. Heck, go memorise the NPCC pledge. Oh, I memorised alr but I forget the pledge when I get too nervous. Cool eh? ((:

Third, Mdm Nurmah is back? Eh no, thats not a so good news. ((:

Erm. I guess that my stay in 4B is better with my good friend Rusydi. How bout that? Haha. And I love the people who rocks the class. Thank you eh.

I must study now. For every subject. Yeah. Haix.

And I dislike Miss Haida can?

Till here?

stressed la

2007-01-22T17:51:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I think I'm stress la. Got many tests and homework. Haix. I'm really thinking of dropping POA. How? As in will my parents let me drop POA? Whats the use of carrying on 'studying' POA if I don't understand a single thing? I sit in class just for attendance sake. And copy whatever teacher write. Nothing goes into my brain. Seriously. There's not even one topic that I can understand very clearly. Haix.

So, should I drop POA or not?

Anw, I've been like staying back after class just to finish up homework before going home. That includes studying too. I makes a big difference. Cos I can't study at home. I mean that there's less distractions in school.

My Malay is like so suckish these days. And the first practice paper that Cikgu Amir gave us the other day is so badly done. Seriously. I must buck up on my Malay okay?

I had fun just now after POA class. Stayed back to do homework. Den talked and laughed with my classmates. It was fun ; obviously. Hehe.

When I talked to you, it feels akward. Really. It feels like talking to someone that I've just known a few days back. But it have been years. Thank God that we are talking now. I still missed the past, those days we spent together and everything. I guess I never really move on without a friend like you.

Till here?

haixx

2007-01-20T10:26:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I blog first can? Hehe.

Okay, ytd I didn't take the Muster Parade. Thank God. I was too nervous. And NIcholas claimed that he had a sore throat. Anw, the CIs wants the SIs to take the Muster Parade so that we can learn. Mine is in two weeks time. Since next Friday I'm going for the NYP Open House with the school. ((: After Nicholas and I take the Muster Parade, it will be Aida and Rusydi's turn. Hehehe. ((:
And I so LOVE my Sec2s can? During the debrief session that I had with them before dismissal ytd, we asked them if they like their new instructors or not. They didn't answer. When Dickson told them that we won't be coming for next week's training, they were like "WHY?". Haha. So I told them that I conclude that they liked their new instructors cos they don't like it when we are not coming. Hehe. You guys rocks la. ((:

Anw, talking to Rusydi, who is like my soooo good friend, on the phone last night is so funn la. Orang tuu sakit la. Alalala. Kesian nyer. Hehe. Take care bro!

Erm. I'm going out today. With the Fiknatic Sisters. Hehe. But there's no Taufik's event today. Iffa coming along or not ah? I missed her loads la. Hehe. So see you all later sisters. ((:

Okay, I must do my homework later. And study for the tests coming up. Like so many test la. POA, Physics, Chemitsty, Maths, Maths and more Maths. Haix. And I must pass them well in order to know where's my standard okay. Haha. ((:

And Malay O'Levels in four months time? Haix. Can I get a distinction? An A1 or A2? Hopefully. Must do the papers well la. Hehe.

Till here?

had funn

2007-01-18T22:28:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm tired and I wanna sleep.

Okay. A quick review of today. After school andd after the stupid councillor meeting, I went to TP Open House with Sunshine Yanti andd her bestie Faja. We had a great fun though I met Sis Faja for the first time. Eh, not the first time. I met her a few times alr. Haha. As in talked to her for the first time. Andd we looked as if we've known each other for years. Hehe.

Haha. It was fun. ((:

Till here. Tired la. (:
`tmr is the muster parade thingy.

wake upp la.

2007-01-17T17:21:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm alone at home. Its bored staying alone at home okay. Nvmd. Its blogging time yarh? (:

Okay. I got back my English DT on composition. Eh, I passed my first English test of the year okay? I was really expecting to fail it okay? And I got 19 over 30. Wow. Hope that I can do well for the othe DT that i sat for just now. Didn't manage to finish summary. A lil bit more seh.

Oh ya, I was asked to go to the office in the morning cos Mdm Tao tot I didn't turn up for the Meet The Parents Session last Friday. Funny sia. I did my duty some more. Luckily managed to get things right or not I must go for detention class after school. Haha. ((:

Chem and Phy test quite difficult. And I'm having a History test tmr. Haix.

Rusydi keep on playing a prank on me seh. Haha. So many times alr. Nvmd, I know him well la. He's like a close friend to me. So yarh. ((:

I made an improvement today. After 3 weeks. ((: I'm proud of it.

What on earth am I still doing here? Go study. But I have some things I wanna blog bout. Nvmd. Next time.

Till here.

tired la.

2007-01-15T17:20:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm tired la. I've done my homework during lunch just now. Both Maths and Malay. I'm left with Physics homework. I'm taking a break.

Okay. School is okay la. Except that I had mood swing just now. In Geography class. Some are like so ~~idiot~~ who talked and walked arnd while Mr. Lee is talking. So I just shouted across the classroom. I was like "Oii! Can you all just like let teacher talk?". Selenger seh semua. Then I was like paying attention throughout. Yeah, I can only concentrate in Geography, Malay, Chemistry, Physics and Maths class. The rest, I'm trying to. Really.

I wanna make it to Poly. I must pass well. I must not let anything affect anything. I'm trying. And really trying. Haix.

Oh ya, I must take Muster Parade this Friday. Omg. I'm scared la. Am I the PC or 2IC? Anything will do la. Just wish me luck. And this Friday's Muster Parade is also one of the tests for my SSGT promos. Can I like be one of the 8 to get SSGT? I have no confidence.

Till here?

cca open house

2007-01-13T14:05:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm very tired okay? I need a rest. A very good rest.

Yesterday is a very tiring day for me. Went to school as usual. Andd since I know that I'm gonna be late for duty, I called Nadia andd asked where she is. So we went to school together. Andd I didn't even bother to find any Excos or my group leaders to tell them I'm not doing duty. Haha. I got my handbook and yearbook after one week of waiting. Haha. Oh ya, instead of getting someone else to replace my position as the vice-chairman, Mdm Tao 'promoted' me to be the chairman. Andd Saadah, from chairman to vice-chairman. WTH? Hakim is another vice-chairman eh? Blurr la. Don't understand.

Anw, after school, got NP training. Its been raining andd I can't get my flagstaff and tent ready for CCA Open House the next day. Took my squad andd do some drills. After that, managed to get the flagstaff since the rain stopped. Thank you, my Sec2. squad for helping me with the flagstaff. Andd to Aida also. Haha. We didn't manage to pitch up our tent however.

Was released at 5.50 and I rushed home to take a quick shower andd report for Sec.4 Meet-The-Parents Sessions duty at 6.30. Nadia took 59 so I went to school with Rifhan. Danial is late. So we waited for another 5mins. The three of us tried to share Rifhan's big and colourful umbrella andd we ended up getting wet. Haha. The session is so boring okay. I took a peep at my flagstaff andd its still standing upright in the rain. Haha. Eh, I did the flagstaff without any help from seniors okay. I made it. ((:

After the thing end, I got so fed-up with Miss Haida. She very confused sia. Whatever man. I was alr very tired. Andd I mean VERY tired. Its different from camps. I don't feel tired at camps. Anw, I cried cos I was to fed-up. FYI, I cried for the first time this year. After 12 days. Andd its not because of him. Haha. Those who saw me getting so fed-up asked me to cool down. Andd also asked me to have a good night rest. Was finally released at 10.20pm. Finally.

I went home, and get ready for the next day. I had a good night rest.

Wake up early for CCA Open House. I pitched the tent in the slight rain with the twinnies Aisah & Aida, Edward and Liang De. Andd again, I did it without help from seniors but some help from my helpers. I must do a better job as the Outdoor Specialist.

Overall, the Open House is okay. But I was really irritated when the twinnes and I must wipe the wet ground sheet andd inner sheet. The rest, just use eye power la. WHATEVER SEH! We alr so tired, then must do all this. We pitched up the tent andd the flagstaff. We also unpitch the two structure. Tired seh. WHATEVER.

I need a goo rest before I do my homework and some revions.

p/s : i dislike flirty boys andd bitchy girls.

Till here.

sickk.

2007-01-09T10:30:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm sick okay. Haix. Missed lessons andd the Physics test. Hope can catch up uh. Hmmph.
I wish that I'll be okay by tmr.

Anw, I've been listening to this song.
PS I'm Still Not Over You by Rihanna.
Andd its like what I'm going through.
I'm not over you.

[Verse 1]
Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
And it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

[Verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that still remain after you were gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easyWhen I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

[Chorus]Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no...
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you.

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Till here.
Wanna do some revisions.

confused lahh

2007-01-07T16:46:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm bored. Andd I've not done my hmwk. After like months of not going though training, I felt so tired after Friday's training when I'm usually so active. I'm used to it alr la. Haha. I'm left with 19 weeks of parade. If I'm not wrong. Then, its time to really say hello to O'Levels. I'll make it through. With less than 18 points. Hopefully.

Okay, note to self ;

-go through serious lessons from tmr onwards. no more time to slack.
-andd, please get over that incident as soon as possible okay? don't let that person, who was once your guy bestfriend ruin everything. yeahh, malliennah missed the past. but nothing can change anything. its gone. really gone. andd please stop bothering bout other's business la. your future is more important okay malliennah?

Haha. Thats so crappy. But its true la.

How much longer will I need?
Andd to that other someone, stop pretending. You never changed. I can see that. Don't make me start to dislike you okay?

Till here.
Will be back next Saturday.

first day of lesson, third day of school.

2007-01-05T19:21:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

Done with the Sec1 Orientation Camp. Still tired okay? Haha. Wanna get a good night sleep tonight. Hehe. Overall, I did enjoy the camp. Though we did really perform well on our Friendship Dance. ((: Its over alr.

Okay, I started off the day with a bad mood cos I'm still tired. I had to go for my morning duty. I was still at home at 6.50 when I'm supposed to reach school by 7. I wasn't feeling well cos I felt like vomitting after drinking my cup of Milo. I walked quickly cos I'm alr late. I reported sick and wanted to make up for duty on Monday. At first, the Exco wants me to make up for duty on Thursday. Andd its group 4's duty on that day andd I decided to take Monday. ((: Went to quadrangle to sit andd talked to some people andd I still feel like vomitting. Haiz. Luckily didn't vomit. Phew.

My first lesson of the year ; Chemistry with Mrs. Yeow. Okay la. She's fun if we don't make her turn mad. Haha. Anw, I don't really study much just now. Rifhan andd I want to be good girls andd we want the student's handbook really bad. Haha. So that we can write down whatever that is needed. Thanks to the camp, we haven't got our handbook and yearbook '06.

Erm, btw, 4B pupils ; am I still your vice-chairman? Haha. Andd Saadah must do more job this year if we don't get replaced. Haha. Am I a good vice-chairman anw? Hmphh.

Hmphh. I had a bad hair day. Andd I sounds funny at times. Haha. Thanks to the Sec1 camp. I love camps andd all the shouting andd screaming and cheering. All that. It rocks my life. But at least for once, can I be a leader for a camp with all the nice campers. Haha. ((:

I have no idea how long will this carry on. I'm tired of everything. Am I too selfish for not talking to you. Andd not even to give you a glance andd a smile? I dislike the feeling of being treated like a stranger. I'm your friend. Andd I really don't know how to react whenever I see you. Haix. Anw, I should concentrate on my O'Levels. No more hesitation.

Till here.

first day of school

2007-01-03T19:38:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I just came back from the Sec1s orientation camp. I'm tired. My legs are aching man! Okay, from this morning, I've been ending my sentences with a 'man!'. (: Andd I'll try not blog with that word okay? ((:

I'm damn irritated with the class that I have to look after. They will take forever to line up in two straight rows. Andd also to hold hands to play the hula hoop game. Irritated man. ((:

I think I'm hungry. I only eat half a packet of the lunch provided in school. Since morning and now its alr 8.10pm. Good man. Andd I lost 2kgs from morning? ((:

Okay, tmr there's another day of camp. Andd our concert item is still not up yet okay? ((:
Don't care la. Haha. Tired tau.

Anw, I really want to study hard cann? I'm so not satisfied when I saw Mrs. Yeow's name in my class time table. She's like teaching me Chemistry? Gawd! She's just so strict la. Andd she once scolded me for no reason. Haha. ((: Won't forget that incident okay? Nvmd la. even if she teach me Chemisry, I must study hard. Cos I wanna get B3 or A2 for my Combined Science. Andd I got a new Pure Geog teacher. Hope he will be nice andd his teaching will make me pass my Pure Geog. Cos I really can't rely on my combined Humans.

Anw to that person, I'm so sorry if I didn't smile at you just now. I'm really not over anything andd everything. Told you that I'll take a long time. I missed the past. Really. I tried to be strong andd I've not cried this year. 3 days andd still counting. ((: I'm tired of crying cos it won't make us like before. I guess you are lying.

Till here can?
I did enjoy myself during the camp. Yeah.
Andd I'm tired. Must grab a bite before I get my gastrics again.
Take care people.
Love love.

hari raya haji

2007-01-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

Okay, its alr 2007! countdown baru abis ahh. Haha!

Andd I had funn at Haig Road just now. Obviously with my kecorables cousins. Haha. I'm ~~rich~~ again. ((:
Before I left the house, I said to everyone that we'll meet next year. Its sounds like far, but its just in a few hours time. Haha. Cous Yana, maybe we'll sleepover the next time okay. Haha. ((:

Anw, tmr I planned to sit at home to finish up on the last few qns of the physics paper. But maybe going out with family la.

I'm so not satisfied with the ending of Cinta Q. Right Cous Zuhai?
Andd anw, see you on wed at school! Yay.

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Memories of 2006 ;

I started studying in 3B andd got lots of friend.
Its alr FIVE years since I knew Nadia. She's so NICE! Andd she's still my bestie okay?
I got over that stupid incident.
Selected to be a Camp Leader of BNSS. ((:
Promoted to Sergeant with 1st Class drill badge andd got the Outdoors Specialist andd Sec 1s'06 squad post.
I'm okayy with the twinnies again.
I neglected my NAFF but became closer again towards the end of 2006. Without Nadhirah ; obviously.
I got two guy bestfriends andd I lost both of them at the end of 2006.
Conflicts with squadmates. ((:
I made it to Sec 4 Express in the year 2007. ((: Yay!
In contact with my childhood friend recently. Izaidah @ Phizie. ((:

There are more ; obviously. These are the major ones. ((:

Erm. Till here?

flag day

2006-12-30T17:36:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm tired after doing the flag day. Its rather crappy. Andd Guan Zhui is so pro that he almost filled the whole tin. At the end of the day, I got $2 from the Lions Home For The Elders club. Yay! Pluss I did the MOST embarass thing in my whole life. I was asked to take picture with I don't know who for the Lions Home club. OMG. Andd we were at the pathway near MRT Tampines. People looking at us like what sehh. Nvmd.

After that, I went to Cous Yanti the Sunshine house since its so near to the Tampines MRT. Hehe. Okay. I had a great laugh cos I shared a lot of stories. Andd she also shared her trip to KL stories. We gonna meet again tmr. Yay. Cous, I know that you're reading this. But seriously, I can't forget whatever that had happened. It will really take a LONG time for me to get over that. Maybe by the time I finish my O'Levels. Sorry okay? Cos I alr cared too muchh.

Till here maybe?

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha. ((:
*I can't wait to see the kambings tmr. Dad, we go mosque first before going to grandma house cann?
Cous Yanti the Sunshine, I went to the mosque last night to count the kambings since I can't sleep. The night before yesterday, i counted my hair to sleep. Tonight, I'm gonna count the number of pebbles in my fish tank before I sleep. Andd I'm gonna sleep in the fish tank tonight after counting. Hahahaha. You know what I mean. Remember?

slightly better

2006-12-29T19:47:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I sat on my specs while trying to dry my hair before going to school. Now my specs are not balance. As a result, I wore contact lens to school. Haha. I must get my contact lens(clear) soon.

I went to school just now. For the supposed to be NCO meeting. ((: Went out early to go to the bookshop to photocopy the holiday assignments for my new classmate ; Rusydi, cum my squadmate. Saw Farah den said hello. Walked with Farah till the POSB cos she wanna withdraw money. I proceeded on the meet Rusydi outside school to pass the assignments. Then I saw Faraa ; the other FaraH. Haha. Followed her to buy books then we sit down and talked till meeting starts. Okay its funn. Haha. Then I saw the malay dancers. I mean Nadia, Feeqa, Efaah and Fizah. Haha. I hope that I really saw them cos my eyesight seems blurr. Haha. Then I mean Rifhan. Yay! Walked with her till the school gate when i'm supposed to enter NP room. Haha.

I came back from the NCO ~~meeting~~ cleaning-npcc-room-session at six pluss. Andd guess what. Only 5 turn NCOs turned up annd I'm the only girl. Okay whatever. The rifles had already arrived. Andd YAY! I like it actually. I'm tired of cleaning. But I didn't do much work. I only bring out some stuffs from the NP room and when the room is cleared, I mopped the floor. Ms Amy said that I'm a Cinderella. Andd my Outdoor racks are ready. Okay. A great transformation in the NP room. Enough la.

On top of that. I'm still upset.

Till here.

the end. fullstop.

2006-12-28T12:37:00.000+08:00

Okay. This post will not even start with a "Hello. ((:" like usual.

I'm moody now. I'm upset. I don't want to entertain another phone call. Andd even reply an sms. Omg. Please. Pluss I'll think twice bout attending tmr's NCO meeting. That's the first during the holidays. ~~IDIOT~~. Might as well make it next year kann? This is the result of always cancelling meeting at the last minute. Plus the flag day thingy on Saturday. Who wanna go? Like on the eve of Hari Raya Haji. Though Hari Raya Haji doesn't make a big difference. I mean not much preparation. I don't want to go. I really have no mood.

I'm currently going some kind of an emotion test. How long this will take? I really have no idea. Okay. Can someone tell me why must this happen? I can't stop blaming myself for what had happened. I really have to let go of someone i really care so much. AND HELLO! ITS NOT A BREAKUP OKAY? Anyway. I just want to keep this to myself. I'm so not sharing this with anyone. Its really difficult on my part. Its all my fault. I can never move on okay? Andd I can never find another FRIEND like you. But I already promised you to change. I'm faking my smile and pretending to be happy since last night. OMG! Andd who is that ~~idiot~~ who said that thing to you? FORGET IT LA. Cos we can never be like before.

Andd I swear myself NOT to keep anymore diarys. Due to some reasons. Hmphh.

I'm left with only some questions from the Physics paper. Then I'm done with my holiday assignments. Though I left some Maths qns undone. COS I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO. Now, its almost time for MUGGING FOR O'LEVELS. Less than ELEVEN months to store information of TWO years knowlegde inside my brain. Plus I must mug hard for SEVEN subjects. Including MALAY! I'm afraid that I can't get an A1 for Malay. Getting A1 for Malay every term this year doesn't make me feel secure of getting an A1 for my O'Levels.

Till here.

letting go.

2006-12-26T13:58:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm chatting with Cous Yanti now. For like dunno how many days nvr talk to her. Anyway Cous, remember the msg you left me before you left? I was in AVA room at school and I feel like crying seh. Haha. You're back now anyway.

Okay I have something to say. I guess that I must learn to let go. I create this mess. And I won't feel like this now if I didn't treat you so badly before. I'm sorry for everything. I thought that the other someone can understand me better. I ignored you and talked to you harshly. Soon, we became like enemies. Haix. It was sad. After a few months, I then argued with that other someone. It took me a very long time to let that person go. And when I finally let that person go, I apologised to you for my stupid mistakes. I want us to be like before. We eventually became like before. BUT, it was only for a few days. I tried contacting to many times. And I was the only one who tried to contact you. I will not feel this way if I didn't treat you that way. I'm tired of waiting. I guess that this is the final goodbye. Take care. I may not able to get you back again as my bestie. Andd please talk to me at school. Cos we are still friends. All the best okay? Thank you for everything.

i dreamt of you last night. we were walking together but we were too quiet. we didn't talk throughout. i left you walking alone behind. i kept thinking. its either we talk or forget bout everything. you then came running after me. i tried to avoid but i can't. we talked things out. but in the end, we go our separate ways. its a sad ending.

CHEYY! what a story. thats a stupid story anyway.

Till here.

she;s back

2006-12-25T21:10:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

Just wanna say that MY SUNSHINE YANTI IS BACK FROM KL.

Till here.

okayy, whatever.

2006-12-25T16:36:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

Today is a public holiday. I forget that okay? Its Christmas today. Hohoho. Merry Christmas. ((: Andd I want to meet the Christmas man cann? I mean the Santa Claus. I prefer calling him the Christmas man lurr. Hehe.

I'm bored. Cous Aida (RoAi) ((: nyer engagement yesterday was a success. I mean she's engaged by now la. Andd tak lama lagi boleh makan nasi minyak kann? Haha. Cous Yana, please get a better card by the time she get married okayy? Hehe. ((: Pluss I'm lazy to upload the pics lah. Next time okay? Hehe.

Anyway. I'm like watching the lame movie Tipah Tertipu now. Wth. I've been watching TV since morning. Haha. Bored la.

Btw, Cous Yanti my sunshine coming back to Spore in a few hours time. Though I don't even know what time she will reach. Hoho. By now, I sent her 8 smses alr. Woots. Yayness.

Am I doing the right thing now? I'm confused okayy? Wahh! Omg. I need a break.

Till here maybe?

guilty la

2006-12-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

Omg. I feel so lonely. Cous Yanti, my SUNSHINE left for KL only ytd and I feel so bored okay? Another two days without her. Torture la. ((:
Andd Cous, I feel guilty for breaking the promise that I made. I only did it half way through. Didn't mean it. REALLY! Pluss I guess you received many msges from me alr kan? It shows how much I miss you. As for now, only 3 msges sent. And more coming up. I have A LOT to tell you alr. Its okay cos I wanna waste my one THOUSAND free smses. ((:

I changed my skin. And its nice. Hehe. I did it myself okay? And It took me almost three frigging hours. Omg.

Must sleep early cos tmr must wake up early. Must go to Woodlands for my Cous Aida's engagement thingy. Wow. That's like hot. Hehe. Okay, that's crap.

Erm. I want all my confusion to go away can? I'm just too confused for everything. Wahh. Its like too personal to share. And its confusing and crappy too uhh.

Hmphh. Okay. Whatever. HohoS..

Till here.

finally a reunion

2006-12-23T14:11:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm glad that I've reunite back with my two sweet farahS. ((: Weets andd woots! Farah, I want the pics cann? FarahS, we hang out together often okay? Andd we are better without nadhirah.

Anyway. My legs are still aching thanks to that day's running.

to Cous Zuhai : Welcome to BNSS. Haha. Now can meet you often. But I'm not taking your class during the camp lurr. Hmphh.

Cousins from father side, see you tmr!

Hehe.

Till here.

gone eh

2006-12-21T17:34:00.000+08:00

Hello.

I'm tired cos I just came back from some councillor thingy. I had fun. Maybe. ((: And I'm tired okay?

Hehe. ((:

Weii. Cous Yanti leaving tmr alr. *cries. No more sunshine. Don't worry too much bout what's happening to us in S'pore. You know, I know what. ((: Enjoy your holiday with SCC at KL. Kann? ((:
to SCC andd all the aunties and uncles going, ( provided if there's any) xD :
Have a safe journey to KL and back to S'pore okay. Most importantly, enjoy the stay there. Hehe.

Aren't I supposed to be studying? ((:
What am I still doing here?

* i still missed my ooh-lalaa. ((:

Till here.

they are backk?

2006-12-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

After publishing ytd's entry, I forget to include that I had a bad fall last night. SLENGER SEH SAYA!

Hahah.

Anyway. Can I cry? Hehe. I'm happy, that's why I wanna cry. ((: There's two reasons to it.

After one week of no news from him, suddenly received a msg from him. Nguahaha. ((: So happy okay? But nothing much. Just some stuffs to talk about. At least there's some news. ((:
I can't believe I'm chatting with my EX-BESTFRIEND. How I missed chatting with him.

Okay la. Enough craps. At least I update.

I love the rain but it seemed irritating cos I now can go out. Thanks to the rain, I must continue my stay at home. Apa seh. Can I like enjoy the last two week of holidays before the school re-opens. Cos then, I'll start MUGGING HARD for O'Levels alr. And I want 18 points. No more no less. Eh, but I less can? Maybe 17? 16? 15? 14? I dun think I can get 13 or less. I'm not smart like Brother who can get A1 for both E and A Maths paper! At least a B4 for Maths will make me better okay?

Therefore, it means that I must mug more and talk less. And blog less too. Surfing time must be cut down to every three days for 2 hrs each day. WAHH! Difficult la.

-when there's a will, there's a way. ((:

Till here.

confused-

2006-12-19T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I have a lot of things to blog about. And hope this will be a super long entry.

Where should i start?

Firstly, congrats to my IFFA HAZIQAH who managed to passed her N'Levels well. With THREE points, its like so super la. Andd you can do it too for you O'Levels next year okay. Getting the top 21 student and your position is 9th. Oh my God! Andd Iffa, we will be taking O'Levels together next year. ((: Cheers! I told you that you can pass your N'Levels. Hehe. Enough craps la.

Secondly, Mom and Bro had been telling me to study well for O'Levels. I want less than 18 points. Andd Bro want me to get 16. If I were to get 2 for CCA points, then minus off and whatever. I'm not even confident of getting 20 points la. I don't want to get more than 18 points. I must really secured an A1 for Malay cos that's my strongest subject. Oh my God, give me strength. I must buck up on all my subjects. REALLY.

Then, just now I had fun spending time with Rifhan. After the less-than-an-hour councillor meeting. We did our hmwk together under my void-deck. We went to eat first at the coffeeshop near macdonalds. Can meet annana alr seh just now. Then she still sleeping. Na, hopefully we can meet on Friday okay? Rifhan and I finished our set 2 of Maths assignments with so many undone qns in between. At least we did. ((: After finishing set 2, we both cannot tahan alr. Need the toilet so badly, so go up to my house. Andd no one's home. Thought of doing of hmwk again at the void deck then my Mom and Bro came back alr. So we just continue at my house. Rifhan, the NUGGETS sedap kann? ((: Haha. My dear Rifhan nak diet tapi tak blh. Bcos da ter-tempted to eat the looking so delicious chicken nuggets. HAHA. Finally I meet her again after 18 days. Haha. ((:
Andd i actually met my dearest Nadia just now. FINALLY.

So I'm just left with some qns from Maths assignment from set 1. The physics paper and a LONG LONG LONG dued SS hmwk. I swear its a long dued work. Like 2 months alr? Kan?

NOTE TO SELF : Please bother yourself to do this particular piece of hmwk. Though the whole class may seem not to care. Its like your own future. Please remember that you need to pass your Combined Humans by prelims cos you FAILED your that particular subject for FOUR TERMS STRAIGHT! Please buck up. Thank you.

I met my sunshine, Cous Yanti at grandma's house just now. ((:
Ohhos.

What else?

Oh ya. I'm like pissed off with someone la. Like technically following whatever I do. But not really. I guess Cous Yanti knows. Oh, MY SUNSHINE.

Till here la. Lazy to blog futher.
`fat cheeks.

changed skin

2006-12-17T09:59:00.000+08:00

Hello people. ((:

I've changed my skin. How was it? Nice? I'm not sure uh. Cous Yanti siad its nice. And we got the same skin okay. Haha. Give me your comments please. ((:

Hohoh. Cous Yanti. I want our pics okay. Send it to me. And that particular sonng. Kaes?

Lazy to blog further. ((:

Till here.
fat cheeks.

hohoS.

2006-12-15T16:42:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm bored lurr. Where's my Cous Yanti?

And I'm having a bad cough and my eyes are red. Omg. I dislike being sick la.

Where's EFAAH? I didn't see her online. I got a pic for you alr. ((:

I'm stressed lurr.

Hmphh.

Till here.
`fat cheeks. ((:

missed you.

2006-12-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I can't sleep yet. No idea why. I must start sleeping early or I else I can't wake up early when school starts. Well. Came back from grandma's house near to 11. Haix.

~~i missed someone.~~
Yeah, maybe some people know who. Suddenly, i missed that someone. ALAMAK. Why seh?

And I'm upset lurr. Cous Yanti, don't ask why. ((:

Where's him anyway? Almost three days alr. )): UPSET UPSET UPSET!

I really can't find a day to go out with Nadia and Annana. Maybe Rifhan too. And twin sisters Aisah & Aida also haven't come over to my place to study. I'm bored staying at home okay. No one understand lurr. Its difficult on my part. People are enjoying life and I'm a part time maid at home. Don't laugh cos its not funny at all. I'm serious. People can go but still complain bout no happiness and stuffs. Why? Be in my shoes la. ~~IDIOT~~

I really want to go out for at least one day okay? For your info, the last time I met my friends is on the 30 Nov, on my class chalet. Hmphh.

Cos things are no longer the same, the turn out to be like this. i'm not complaining. I'm just sharing my thoughts.

Pluss, trust me when i say I have mood swing nowadays. ((:

Andd lastly, is there meeting tmr? Shit la. I HATE being informed at the last minute okay.

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ME!

I'm so NOT enjoying my holidays.

Till here.
`fat cheeks. ((:

boredd lurr. ok. ((:

2006-12-13T13:29:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm bored staying at home. No idea on what to do. Maybe will try finishing up on the homework later. Plus some revision. How bout that. Haha.

i wanna go out with nadia. But must find a suitable day. ((: Missing her so badly.

I missed everyone in 3b. ((:

I missed my cousins. Both my father and mother side. Especially my Cous Yanti.

And everybody lar.

HahaS.*

Tmr going grandma house again. Hmphh.

Till here lurr.

bohooo.

2006-12-13T13:23:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

to EFAAH : i just want to share my feelings lurr. ((: LOVE-LOVE.

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Hmphh. Cous Yanti, come over can? Haha. Missed you lurr. Cous Nur is here. Sleeping over till thurs. ((:

And I need some peace. ((:

Till here.

bored lurr

2006-12-11T03:24:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I'm bored lurr. Nothing to do. I want to go out. But dunno where to go. Hmphh.

I slept at 2 pluss ytd. Wow. Nguahaha.

Niwaes, till here uhs.

Take care people.

p/s : i missed Cous Yanti, Rifhan, Nadia and Annana. ((:

my thoughts

2006-12-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

Another post of the day. And its almost midnight lurr. HahaS.*

Many things have been bugging my mind. I have a lot to write. But don't know where to start.

Anw. Hmphh. Let me think.

to EFAAH : i read your blog just now. i guess i understand how you feel. i can't say that i fully understand how you feel cos i'm not in your shoes. i'm glad to see you so strong. you appeared calm everytime i see your face. but inside, i know there's a lot of things that you are thinking about. i've been reading every of your blog entries and never to miss out one. i care for you, my friend. i know your family problem has been going on for so long, yet you can score well for your papers and get good results. i'm proud for you, girl. having a complete family does not mean that there's happiness all the time. there maybe hidden problems that are unknown to the public. there are people who are better with broken families. but some not, unfortunately. i know you have no siblings to share your feelings with. you can approach me for a listening ear. but maybe you don't feel good talking to me, i understand. and i found out that you are getting step-father soon? pluss a little daughter? is it true? well, don't let it affect anything okay? just take it slow. i wished that i can be like you. i don't want to let anything to affect my studies. i slacked a lot alr. i'm not smart like you lurr. o levels are so important to me la. don't wish to get bad results. lastly, i know you may not agree to whatever i say. i just want you to feel better, that's all. glad to find someone like you. be strong girl. ((:

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HuhuS`*

Till here la.
Want to sleep.

yeay

2006-12-09T15:17:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I've got my contact lenses ytd. And my sis said that everybody in the shop was listening to the lady who was teaching me how to wear contact lenses. Nguahaha. ((:

Today 8 Dec kan? And if I'm not wrong, I was at Taufik's Birthday Bash last year. Am I right? I guess so la. And, I only met him once this year. ONCE OKAY? Pluss, I'm not going to this year's Birthday Bash larr. )):

I missed IFFA HAZIQAH a lot. When can I meet her ah? And Iffa, N level results out soon kan? Believe in yourself and I'm sure you'll be promoted to sec.5 okay? Hehes. I LOVE YOU!

Pluss I missed all the fun times I had with the Fiknatic Sisters. Nguahaha.

Till here.

malliennah`

plainly bored la.

2006-12-06T08:20:00.000+08:00

Hello. ((:

I just feel like blogging a very long post. But I don't know what to blog about. Haha`

I'll try la. ((: HuhuSs`

What does it feels when you can predict what you're gonna do next once you wake up from sleep? Nyahhs. Every morning, I do the same thing. Wake up, make the bed, sweep the room, open the window, sweep the whole house, wash the dishes, clean the kitchen and bla bla bla. Its like the same routine la. However, I seemed to like doing so very much ah. Surprisingly, I'm NOT complaining. I used to dislike doing all the house work so much. It seems irritating before. Anyway, if I don't do all these works, who else will? Andd nobody can understand what I mean. Maybe Cous Yanti can. Cous, you understand kan why?

Hmphh. What else uhh?
I wanna blog more.
``Let me think.

Oh ya. Cous Yanti, tmr go grandma house? Den we go home together. If possible, sleep at my house la. ((: Andd next time we have mass chat with him again okay?

HohohoS`

Ok la. Really have no idea on what to blog about.

Maybe I'll go study. Yes, STUDY.

Till here.

malliennah`

hey hey

2006-12-05T08:04:00.000+08:00

Hello to all kind souls reading my blog. ((:

I'm bored actually. I'm having headache but don't know why. Later going to grandma's place. And as usual, no Cous Yanti. :((

Anyway, ytd went to NUH to visit Cous Syafiq. OMG! Cous get well soon okay? Three weeks alr kan? And it'll be a longer stay there. Next time be more careful aite? Riding a motorcycle is DANGEROUS la. I know its plainly bored staying there doing nthg. GET WELL SOON. :))

Plus, chatting with ANNANA last midnight is fun la. We will chat again okay na? :))
RIFHAN, hurry up come back from KL la. :)) ANNANA said that you are active when I told her that you went to India, then come back to S'pore for the class chalet then went for KL the nex day. Hahah``

Andd. People who visit my blog, please tag can? The number increase but no tags. TAG OKAY? I love you people.

I don't want to blog further la.

Till here.

boring. :))

2006-12-03T05:45:00.000+08:00

Hello. :))

I'm bored. And I'm blogging. Currently using my sis's laptop. Computer isn't working well. Nvmd.

Anyway, just now I went to buy books. Omg. Done with it. O's next year. Can't believe okay?

I'm tired of doing the same routine everyday but i don't want to complain. Nvmd la.

I've actually placed order for my contact lenses. Getting it on next Thursday. Omg. Troublesome la..

I don't know what to blog about even thought I have a lot to say.

I'm so confused abt evrything happening arnd me. Hmphh.

Why must everything happen at the same time?

I need someone to talk to.

Where's my Cous Yanti? Where is ~~him~~?

Till here.

malliennah`

2006-12-02T16:10:00.000+08:00

to Cous Yani,here's the pics. Sorry for the delay. My computer rosak la.
Okay, happy stealing. :))

And yesterday's class chalet was okay.

malliennah`

hohohoho

2006-11-28T08:28:00.000+08:00

Hello. Just a short one. =))

Now at Cous Yanti's house. My computer something wrong. So yarh. =))

And I had great fun yesterday and today.

Yesterday went back to kampung. Hehe. And just now went out with Cous Yanti. From Orchard to City Hall to Marina Square to Suntec then back to Tampines. YAY!

to Cous YANI : i'll try to send the pictures as soon as possible okay?

Till here.

2006-11-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

Hey. There's no more school. Its time for me to buck up. Results are so bad. And report book is still inside my bag. Though I received the report book on monday. Still haven't show it to my parents. How nice kan? I passed and can be promoted to sec4 Express. But I don't know why I don't want to show it to my parents.

Btw. I have some things to say.

to RIFHAN : thank you for being a very nice partner. you endured my craps for like 11 mths. and also bear with my mood swings. you've been a very nice person la. listening to all my pathetic problems and also to tell me your secrets. i LOVE sitting next to your. and luckily we are still classmates next year. haha. LOVE YOU. hope we'll sit somewhere near again okay?

to HAIRIL : pat buddy. you are very smart la. haha. we are classmates again. yay. thanks for being a kind soul listening to my problems or whatsoever. hehe. take care bro.

to ALL MY NICE CLASSMATES OUT THERE : rock on peeps. rock the whole class again next year? LOVE YOU GUYS A LOT.

Haha. That's all.

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And I got lots more to write.

to ~~BESTFRIEND~~ : i just wanna say that we can no longer be the same. lets just go through life as two individuals. we used to be so close. till mum knows about you. now mum still ask bout you and i don't know how to answer. i'll just smile and say you're fine but deep inside, i'm thinking bout eveything that we've done together. i won't be there at jalan bahtera again last two weeks without your support. i know that you just said so at random, just to make me feel better but it make a difference. thank you for everything. i can't possibly wait for you to come back cos i've moved on with my life. i'm gonna miss a great friend like you. i guess that we can never be like before. we are not like before after more than a month. I've never dreamt of losing you. i never want it to happen. we were once so close. and now, everything gone just like that. i always blame myself for saying those words to you. but hey, i didn't mean it okay? i was joking la. the camp doesn't make us any better. the days we spent together are like... i don't know how to explain. i'll keep that as memories. i can't bear to lose you. i find everything meaningless. urgh. i'm such an idiot. .uoy for erac llits i. take care always.

to HAKIM : hello friend. thank you trusting me this time round. i promise to appreciate you no matter what. we are back like before. we are happy people. : )

wth

2006-11-15T01:40:00.000+08:00

Hey. I've disappeared for some time. I'll be back soon. Maybe tmr? =)

i miss you.

2006-11-10T13:50:00.000+08:00

Hey.

Stupid modemline down for two days. :(

To Cous Yanti, I missed you a lot okay? O levels hurry finish can?

Hehe.

Btw, class is getting smaller by the day. There's like 19 absentees at maximum so far. I have full attendance expect for on mon, due to the camp.

Anyway, I missed bestfriend. I'm pretending to look okay when I'm actually not. Seeing him in school make me... Urgh! Nvmd. Perhaps I should not call him bestfriend anymore. Friend maybe? Yarh. Haiz. WHEN YOU LEFT, I LOST A PART OF ME. COS TECHNICALLY WE ARE BONDED IN A WAY. Oh SUGAR! :)

Till here.

malliennah`

2006-11-08T09:36:00.000+08:00

TO COUS YANI : here's the pics.
sorry for the delay.

SL camp06

2006-11-08T08:51:00.000+08:00

Hey. Back from the camp. Nothing much to say. And i'm DISAPPOINTED with my group.

This is the camp leaders. =))

Incomplete. 4 missing.
Isabel, Edward, Yong Siang and Tat Ming.
THANK YOU RYAN. I CAN'T HELP BUT TO STEAL THAT PHOTO FROM YOU. HAHA. =))

I want all the other photos.

Till here.

malliennah`

SL camp

2006-11-04T13:00:00.000+08:00

Hey. This will be a short one.

Will be gone for camp tmr. Service Learning Camp for sec2. Helping out as camp leader. Just hope that the 20 of us will do a good job tmr. As for Siraj, congrats for being the CIC. Be a good one. And we will support you all the way. :) We will run a good show for you all.

to COUS YANTI : GOOD LUCK FOR Os. I'll support & pray hard for you.

to COUS YANI : I'll upload our pics ASAP after camp.

to BESTFRIEND : thank you & i'll be going to the camp !!

Till here.

malliennah`

2006-10-31T05:24:00.000+08:00

Hey. I'm pretending to be happy these days. I'm actually disappointed with my shooting. NO MARKSMAN BADGE FOR ME. And don't ask for my mark. It sucks la.

I"m still in school. Having pre-camp thingy later.

LIFE IS FULL OF PRETENCE.

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO RIFHAN.
I LOVE YOU MANY MANY. :)

Till here.

malliennah`

ohsohs

2006-10-28T14:10:00.000+08:00

Hey. My live shoots in a few hours time. And I want to get marksman. Don't get me wrong cos heck, I don't want that blardy range specialist post okay. I don't think I'm gonna get it anyway. Cos OUTDOOR SPECIALIST IS ENOUGH.

Wish me luck people.

Till here.

malliennah`

selamat hari raya peeps

2006-10-26T08:45:00.000+08:00

Hey. Yesterday is Hari Raya and heck, I don't feel it at all. I just feel like its another family gathering pluss getting some money. Hah.

Btw, here's some pictures taken yesterday. ENJOY! =))

My Family. LOVE.

SIBLINGS. <3

I'm gonna miss you soon. ~~TOYOL~~ Don't go back to Pontianak yet. LOL. Do come back here next year aite?? =))

sis.~~cik~~ KAK lilis.cous yanti.me
*we prefer calling her kak instead of cik. =)

I LOVE COUS YANTI LOADS.

Since I feel that its just like another family gathering, there's not much pics.

And I almost fall asleep in class just now.

Till here.

malliennah`

hari raya

2006-10-24T05:25:00.000+08:00

Woots.

Tmr is HARI RAYA but i don't feel excited. A little bit ah.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO THE NICE PEOPLE WHO VISIT MY BLOG AND READ THIS. I LOVE YOU PEOPLE. ;HEARTS.
FORGIVE ALL MY WRONG DOINGS.
WILL TRY MY BEST NOT TO REPEAT THEM.
LOVE,
malliennah`

Till here.
malliennah`

not the same

2006-10-22T13:30:00.000+08:00

Hey. I feel like blogging. So yeah.

Ytd's parade is like worst though its the last parade. Out of 11 female ncos, only 2 turn up. Nice ehs? But as for the male ncos, I think only 1 or 2 didn't turn up. And sir expect me to plan the campcraft game all by myself. Think of the locations & forfeits. And expect me to remember what knots to tie at the different stations. Its like hello! WHATEVER. But actually, I was on the phone for one hour plus with HIM the last night. LOL. =)) Then I called bestfriend about No. 1 uniform after putting down the phone.

TO SYAZ : I JUST PASSED THE NUMBER ONE UNIFORM TO MY OC YESTERDAY. AND ITS LIKE MORE THAN 3 MONTHS AFTER SYF!!
=))

TO MY SEC ONE CADETS : Guys, I really hope that you all can speak up more. Respond loudly if there's a need to. I'll be extremely nice to you all if you all can cooperate with me. Feel free to approach me if help is needed. Other instructors are also available. To the only four girls in the squad, mix around well with the other squadmates. No matter what, I LOVE YOU GUYS.
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I just don't feel the same anymore. I'm rather upset. I feel as though I really lost him alr. Ytd after parade, I walked to the bus stop with bestfriend. I don't feel like any other walk we had to the bus stop before. I got nothing to say when I usually got a lot to say. And when he was about to take the bus, he was about to hulurkan his hand like usual, for me to shake his hand. But then, he don't want to shake hand and said nvmd. I felt so different. But I just tried to think positive and told myself that's its Ramadhan, so yarh. NVMD!

YOU'RE GONE, BUT DO COME BACK.

Don't feel like blogging further.

malliennah`

i love you.

2006-10-19T06:15:00.000+08:00

Hah. Sorry for not updating for so long. Well. I had fun these few days.

I'm okay with bestfriend. phew! I mean talking to him la. And it took me the whole stretch from school gate to traffic light near bus stop just to decide whether I should call him or not. Haha. In the end, he called me.

Just now had four free periods. Two periods of English and another two periods of Geography. And the good thing is, there's no teacher in class. Cool. Had fun sharing jokes and riddles with the malay boys. Then I feel like sleeping in POA and Chemistry lessons. Its boring okay.

Later going to grandma house. Going to buka there. YAY!

Till here la.

malliennah`

general matters

2006-10-14T12:17:00.000+08:00

Hey. I feel like blogging. Well, I have a lot to say but I'll just keep it short. Hah. I guess that I really passed the exams. Can be promoted though I don't perform well. Its okay. I must really buck up. And I'm thinking twice about dropping POA. =)

Well. I've been fasting for more than two weeks. Never missed one day and I hope that I won't miss a single day. Heh. During this fasting months, its like obvious that one or two souls is not fasting. And since I have LOW TOLERENCE level, I feel irritated easily each time I see people drinking or eating in front of me. Omg. I'm not hinting to anybody but if you think that I'm talking to you, accept this fact that I don't like it. These souls are already NOT fasting, yet can drink or go eat. Omg. This is so difficult. I guess that I'll just text this in malay.

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Makk oi, dah la tak puasa, nak tunjuk-tunjuk pulak tu. Ikut suka hati jer nak buat apa yang krg nak. Tak hormat bulan Ramadhan langsung. Walaupun tgh uzur, tak payah la nak minum ker apa. Bangga la tu, tak puasa. Da gitu tak pe, boleh gi makan pulak tu. Abeh kita yang tgh puasa rasa lapar tak kisah ke apa? Fikir la. Buat sia-sia jer puasa. Klw puasa tapi perangai masih nonsence buat apa seh. Klw da minum tapi masih mengaku puasa tu lagi terok. Buat dosa menipu pulak. Tak boleh pandang la manusia manusia macam nie. MEREPEK. Pandai mengata pasal org. Psl org pakai tudung etc. Diri sendiri tak betul. Pandai mengata. Pandai mengumpat. Ahh. Apa apa jer la. Yang penting, aku puasa, ikut hukum dan buat apa yang patut. Dan juga jauhkan diri daripada segala yang tidak elok.
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Again i clarify. I this text is not meant for anyone. Just something on general. If you think that I'm talking about you, accept it. Cos I dislike it.

Oh ho. I felt better. Okay la.

Btw, my actual shoot is on next two fridays, the 27th Oct. Wish me luck. =)

Till here.

malliennah`

thank god.

2006-10-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

Hey. I'm in a rush and I'm just updating a little bit here. Okay.

Yesterday, after assembly, the whole class was being asked to go back to classroom. I was so anxious. I heard that Mdm Tao want to meet those who didn't manage to clear the exams. As in does not pass overall. I was expecting that I was one of those. But she didin't call me. I was shocked. The rest can go home and I asked Mdm Tao due to unsatisfied-NESS. Hah. She said I cleared the exams. THANK GOD! But she said that she don't remembered seeing my name. So, who knows that I might be called.

I'm hoping that everything is alright! *crossed fingers.

TODAY IS PROMOTION EXERCISE DAY. OMG!

malliennah`